This is home.

This is what I call home. This. Being in my room. My red room. My little red room. With my little white heater. Listening to a weird instrumental that I don't know the name of. Sipping hot coffee. Using my own computer. Typing on my own keyboard. With half frozen hands. Wearing mismatched purple socks.

This. Is. Home.

Having my camera with me again. Watching Midnight in Paris with s1 at night. Discussing random nothings with the parents over Kashmiri Chai. Reading my novel, and falling asleep on the floor. With a huge comforter over me, which is the perfect wintery shade of blue. Waking up randomly at 6 a.m and taking a hot shower. Using s1's weird nicely scented products. And falling back to sleep. In the blue comforter. On the floor.

This. Is. Home.

Being lectured by dad for not being interested in cooking. Or shopping. Being pampered by mom. Getting breakfast in bed. Huge burgers and fries. Annoying s1 out of her mind. Laughing idiotically for hours with s2. Going out with friends. Every. Other. Day. Being idiots. Me taking pictures of every little thing. The cups, the speakers, the walls.

Home.
(:

Free atlast.

Its weird that I haven't eaten anything all day, except for a stupid little bun with chicken spread that the Daewoo people put in their weird little lunchbox. Thats it. And I don't feel like eating. Mom's gonna come home, and kill me if she finds out. Heh.

I find a weird kind of similarity between Steve Jobs and Maynard James Keenan. No reason. I just associate them with each other.

I cannot believe that my profs are over. They're over. Im free. And I have no exams till late next year. Ofcourse I'll have huge tests happening every other day, but i can take anything other than Profs. Profs. Are. Too. Much.

Imma start watching movies again. And finally finish Atlas Shrugged.

For some reason, my friends from home were super excited about me coming back. I don't know why. But it made me feel nice. And warm. It pleasantly confuses me. When they do that. Im going to meet them soon. Can't wait.

The roomies are coming over to my place. To my city. For a week. That shall be interesting. A little unsure about inviting them to my Life. But oh well. We shall see. My mom's going to make all of us really fat. With all her food. Fun.

That shall be all for now.

s1 has a blog!

So hi.

S1 has a blog now. About time she started balogging. *rollseyes*

Soooo, yeah. Check it out:


dreampraylove.blogspot.com


Kthanksbye.

(for weird people who don't know who s1 is, she's my sister. 3 years older.)

From the study room.

So i'm sitting here in the study room, listening to music that I like, and talking to s1 on whatsapp. I just finished a packet of Nimko and cocomo. My back's about to freeze and my legs are already frozen. I need to pause this song. The lyrics are distracting. Yes. So, students have started coming to the study room. It was empty when i first walked in. Empty was nice. I hope nobody comes and sits next to me. I need my space. It was this want for my own space that made me come here in the first place. So yes, i'll be very annoyed if a random girl decides to sit in the cabin/desk thingy next to me.

There are certain recurring themes in my dreams. Like. My old school. Babies. Car accidents. What's up with that? I had a dream the other day. The other night*. Russian voodoo was involved. Hah. Weird.

My blog's been super dry lately. Just like my throat is, every morning. That dry. So sad. It used to be this cozy happy place. It was peaceful. Now its all. Weird. Because i blog from my phone now. Back at home, i took retarded pictures of useless things. And i posted them here. I don't even have my camera here. I miss it. I miss home. But it doesn't make me sad. Its a constant feeling, somewhere at the back of my head. Doesn't bother me at all.

I'm tired of being in the room. Tired of the blue and purpleness of it. Tired of the three beds. Tired of the cozy blankets. Tired of being out of clean spoons all the time. Tired of being around people. Im just tired.

I'm gonna go to the room, and get myself a shawl. And my wallet. Then i'll buy a cup of tea. And then. Biochemistry. Hectic days ahead. Still. Seventeenth. December. Is it EVER going to come? I don't think so. Maybe never. A cat's making weird noises.

So i did go and get myself a shawl. And tea. And a chocolate muffin that tasted like mattress. The cafe here has no coffee. So i asked the guy. Y u no coffee? Apparently, they only serve coffee once its foggy all around. Great. My phone's battery is almost dead. So i shall go now.

Dependency. I hate it. Scares the shit out of me.

Goo'bye.

Things that are heavenly.

>:|

Unfinished notes on my cellphone are increasing in number as days go by. I write, i save, and i never open it again. Maybe I'; publish all that later, one day, when I have nothing else to write. Yeah.
What an ugly emoticon. In the title. Yuck.
So. Its 9:17 p.m. Im at the hostel. No one's in the room right now. Which is a blessing really. Because blogging is always fun when no ones around. We've ordered Shawarma. Then I'll have gol gappay and then Coffee. And I'm not even hungry. But. Im going to eat all that in an attempt at uplifting my mood. Because my mood sucks. And there aren't many things i hate more than feeling sucky. I hate this feeling. I like being happy. I hate being sad. Its as simple as that.
I need something to uplift my mood. I could watch a movie, or go out for a walk, or do whatever, but I know nothing's going to work unless I deal with all the teeny tiny little thready issues that I have on my mind. I also know that I can't deal with all that right now. Not today. Because it's sort of not in my hand. I hate feeling helpless. And useless. And eww. What a stupid feeling. I hate how i sound chirpy even when i feel sucky.
Okay the food is here. r2's going to get a movie. I asked her to get ANY movie I could watch anything right now. Hostel people have sucky movies. Losers.
Bye. -.-

Mr.Cuddles looks adorable today.

Lucky.

I feel lucky.

I had my second Prof today. Went alright. The first one sucked. Not even sure if i'll pass. But, whatever.

I feel lucky. Because i've realized how pampered I am. Infact, i am a little amazed at just how nice everybody is to me, generally. My family loves me. I whine infront of my sisters 24/7, i mean, literally 24/7 about my exams, and they put up with it. I ask N to talk to me continuously, and she does. My mom, prays for me relentlessly, and dad keeps a check on everything in his own discreetly cute way. My cousin Nd keeps a check on me too and gives me mini-brainwashing-lectures from time to time. And promises me to give me his new Galaxy s2, incase i fail. My friends ask me about my exams regularly. And then i have the Roomies. They're good people. They pamper me because they know how retarded, clumsy and lazy I am. They find me funny. And they miss me when im not there.

I also have an amazing rooftop here at the hostel, where i can sit for hours by myself and marvel at the awesomeness of the sky.

What more can I ask for?

Mood flucktuations.

At times nothing helps.
So i just go outside, listen to Coldplay, walk under the street light thing, marvel at how pretty everything is, smile to myself, and come back inside.

It helps.


On another note, i present to you, my exam playlist:

Paradise - coldplay.
(whattay mood lifter. Its so ME.)

You can't save me - Richie Kotzen
(a friend posted it on facebook recently. I liked it. And downloaded it.)

Soothsayer - Buckethead
(as good as a cup of coffee most of the times)

November Rain - Guns and Roses.
(because its long and awesome)

Ghost host - Buckethead
(gooood study music. Keeps me focused)

Blue Jeans - Lana del ray
(heard it on my online french radio. It has a funny feeling to it. Perfect walking music.)

Saari raat jaaga - Noori
(For when i take a break just to listen to a song)

..and that is about it for now. Except last night i couldn't sleep. So i turned on a random comedy channel on my online radio. Ellen degeneres made some lame jokes and i fell asleep.

P.s. Yes, i said fluck-tuations. What are you staring at?

Deathby proffs.

Weird day yesterday. Woke up early. Walked to college. Attended a one-hour lecture. Of sorts. Bought some stationery. Bought barbican. Bought Nestle juices. Hostel. Slept. Woke up. Studied. Studied. Slept. Woke up. Studied. Started panicking. Texted N. Talked about stupid stuff with N. Talked to s2. For two minutes. Talked to mom. Assured her that my prep was fine. Tried to study. Couldn't. Panicked more. Texted people. Felt worse. Had a craving for biscuits and tea. Went out to get biscuits. Got biscuits. Made tea. Had it. With biscuits. Took a break. Watched random movie trailers on my phone. Tried to study. Couldn't. Felt awful. Went to sleep. Woke up. Drank barbican. Studied a little. And panicked again. Wasted hours doing nothing. Felt shitty. Tried studying. Studied a little. Wrote a long note on my phone. Ranted, really. Erased it. Tried studying again. Ended up missing mom and dad. Went to sleep. Kept waking up every fifteen minutes. Had a billion dreams. Of fire and rain, and fire again. Of hell.. in my drawing room. Of a ship. And of a girl i don't even know. Woke up finally an hour ago. Around 7 a.m. Took a heavenly shower. Now here i am. Sleepy as hell. Studying again. Feeling shitty. Will do anything for a good cup of coffee.
Oh well.

Exams have a way of bringing me down.

s1 hates me.

While s1 was studying..

me: s1!

s1: the hepatic parenchyme is organized into cribiform anastomosing sheets or plates..

me: s1. Im scaredddd.

s1: ..of hepatocytes seen in microscopic sections as cords of cells..

me: s1! I cant studyyy.

S1: hepatocytes immediately abutting the portal tract are..

me: s1! Meray nakhray bardaasht karo.

s1: rederred to as a limiting plate forming a discontinuous rim around the mesenchyme...

Me: meray nakhray bardaasht karo.

s1: of the portal tract. There is a radial..

me: meray nakhray bardaasht kao!

s1: Shut up.

me: ...

Tiny Eid post.

So. Eid. We didn’t go to our relatives this time. I was super bummed. But then. We did our own little BBQ dinner at home. Just us. And it was amazing. And I ate a lot. And had custard later.

 

So yeah. I'm happy.

My proffs start in about two weeks. The panic shall kick in soon.

Chen.

The last two weeks have been great. Stayed at Khala's last week. Now I'm home for Eid. Im going to miss it. Its hostel again after this. But that's fine too.

My roommates have decided to call me Chen from now on. They think i look Chinese. Ahan.

Watched In Time yesterday. Refreshing idea. Not well executed but. Oh well.

Hate how people say things they don't mean. Confuses me.

That is all for today.

Snippets - 3

[next day]

Its 4 a.m. Haven't written anything all day. Last night and the
morning after, were super weird. Got over the temporary insanity by evening.
ThankGod. Came to the hostel. Caught up with the roomies. Talked about
all kinds of stuff. They assigned each of us duties while i was gone. I'm the
dish washer, apparently. Which is fine actually. Because room cleaning
is not my thing anyway. I finally did some studying today. Felt good.
Had two cups of coffee, and Hello headache. =] Have to wake r2 for Fajr
in a while. Better get my chapter done before that.
More later.

..........


6:49 pm:

Lying in my bed. Just finished eating a not-so-yummy shawarma. Watched
Grey's with it. Me and the roomies went out to get food supplies.
Walked. Its weird how none of the stores had a k&n freezer. Not cool.
I'm wearing socks today. I shall sleep now.

..........


9 pm.

So my roomates decided to not let me sleep. Sprayed water all over me.
Revenge. Is. Due.
So i got up and had coffee and did some Physio instead. About to go
out for a walk with r2. Gotta get naans for dinner.

........


01:12.

Just came back from an hour long walk. Love my hostel for this. Love
being able to walk outside, anytime of the day, or night. But shit, I'm
tired now. Parhay ga kaun?

........

01: 38

I feel weird. I don't know what i feel right now. Doing nothing, makes
me think weird. But I'm so sleepy, i don't feel like studying. And i'm
afraid that if i sleep now, im going to wake up really late. But i
feel weird. And i don't know what one should do when one feels like
this. Im going to sleep. And that's what one should do. I plan on
waking up at Fajr.

.........


[next day]


10:25

..yeaah. So one woke up at Fajr. Just had breakfast. Cheese sandwich +
tea. I'm so cold. A cat just tried to come inside the room. I shoo-ed
it away. Next time I'm spraying water on it. This morning, i feel
alive.


..........

11.04

suzaaaanna, suzaaaanna, suzaaaanna, im crazy lovin youuuu.


..........

16:20

Me: *shudders* eeee its so cold!
r2: *laughs*
me: what?
r2: you remind me of of that cartoon character.
me: which one?
r2: all cartoon characters.
Me: ....

............


[next day]

15: 39

Last night was fun. I went out for a walk. Everybody was asleep.
Came back and slept.
Talked to N on skype. Had barbican. Felt amazingly fresh. The roomates were
sleeping so it was a video call without the audio. Told her about a
stupid thing that happened earlier that day and laughed like an idiot
for the next ten minutes.
Slept at 5.


.........


17:02

Hahah. A cat mutilated r2's shoe with its claws. Its ruined.


.......


22:25

Been lazy all day. Finally got out of the blanket. Took a shower.
Had coffee. Then an ice cream. And roamed around the hostel with the
roomates. Refreshing. Studying, now.


........


00:43

YAY. R2 loved my watch. Finally. Someone other than me and N
appreciates it. R1 made a nice cheese-omelet-pita-bread thingy for
dinner.
It was nice. I need. Coffee. Now. :)


........


02:33

I'm in love with my life right now. Doesn't mean that everything's
perfect. Doesn't mean that im super happy and doesnt mean that i dont
have issues. I love life because everythings not perfect, because I'm not always happy, and I do have issues. Life's twisted. And that
is why i like it. :]

Snippets- 2

So last night wasn't really productive. I slept a lot. And woke up
late feeling pathetic. Hide and Seek by Imogen heap is one of my all
time favorite songs. I'm sleepy. Maybe i should sleep for sometime
before i start studying. Hmm.


..........


I'm up. Watching the last samurai all over again. Cruise looks good.
And the kids in the movie are way too cute. I want to borrow one. But
anyway, loving the movie. Been too long since i last saw it.

.........


I have realized that i hate Wanted. The movie. Fraternity of
assassins. Pfft. Watching the Young Frankenstein on TV. I'm not
interested. Re-animation of dead tissue he calls it.


.........


I'm hungry. Khala offered me Mcdonalds. But Im not s2, and i don't say
yes to mcdonalds everytime someone mentions it. So i refused. I want
to eat something else. I don't know what though. Bleh. I don't feel
too good right now. Sigh.

........


I like studying with just the lamp on. Helps me focus. I've lost all
my focus lately. I need it back. I wonder who stole it. Maybe you did.
Did you?


........


Lamp. The scarecrow. A.c. Texting with N and Coffee. I finally have
the perfect environment for studying. Notochord, here i come.
Rise to fame, time has come. Make your claim, time has come for the
crow to fly away!

Snippets - 1

I've started writing random nothings about my day on my cellphone lately. I'm going to start pasting it in parts now.

19th. Oct. 2011.
Going back to Lahore on Friday. One day to go.
Stupid, stuuupid day today. Bad BAD mood.
But i just had a laughing fit, while talking to N right now. Just got
off the phone.
Im desperately looking forward to meet her again. So that we can have
the Supersonic superfudge sundae again. And watch Family Guy and go
nuts. :]
Warid hates me. I hate him too. Yes, i just called Warid a him.
That is all for now.

[next day]

On my way to Lahore. Lazy lazy journey. The nice old lady sitting next
to me, insists on talking. She said 'beta, dar dar ke jaayain'. No
idea what that meant.

.............

Wow, she just told me a story about her daughter in law's brother's
future wife. :) And now she won't stop talking. Halp meh! I'm going to
pretend to fall asleep.
Amazing. She changed her seat. And is now chatting away with the woman
in the front seat. Yay me.

..............

Dear baby in the backseat. STOP crying, you! >.< Everybody knows
you're faking it. I don't see no tears.
So..Stop..making..my..ears..bleed.

..............

Reached Lahore. About to fall asleep.

.............

Woke up. No one's at home. Haven't eaten anything all day. Went to the
kitchen. Had a pear. It was small. I'm dreading studying Embryo. But i
should try and start. I want a chocolate. Which reminds me, i had two
chocolate muffins in my dream. And won a $71million lottery. Great.
Okay enough. I'm changing into my comfort clothes, and starting
studying. Wish me luck.

.............


Nd gave me an overview of embryo. He had these awesome simulations
that were helpful. Now i have to study it on my own. But why is it
that every time he teaches me, i feel dumb? Too dumb. Way too dumb. It
sucks. Imma call N in some time. I'll make coffee too. I love the new
Cheetos. The ultra spicy ones. I played with Nd's new Galaxy s2
whatever. Used the Swype thingy. It was fun. Okaybye.

..............

[Later that night]


Studied a leetal. Made coffee. Talked to N for two hours. Watched
masterchef and Castle during the phone call. Now my head hurts, and
the embryo book looks intimidating. Btw, Terranova is the suckiest
show ever. I haven't ever seen it. Not planning on watching it either.
Heh.

...........


More later.

s2 is a spoilt brat.

s2: omG. I feel like having fish. I'm gonna ask dad to bring it for me.

me: We dined out just yesterday.

s2: so?

me: So..its not necessary to dine out everyday. We'll have fish some other time.

s2: Shush. Imma call dad.

me: -.-

*she calls dad. Dad agrees*

s2: See? He didn't have a problem, you did.

me: Whatever, you suck.

s2: Man, your kid's are gonna suffer so much. I feel sorry for them already.

me: ..And your husband will shoot himself.

No name face.

Today, was a goood day.

Woke up, got yelled at by mom for not studying at all. Studied half a page. Went to an Arts festival with s1. Which sucked. A couple of paintings were nice though. Met a friend. Went to have food. Because i was super hungry. Had fuuuun. Laughed. Randomly decided to accompany s1 to her Maternity ward duty. Got tired. Came back at night. Had some tea. Talked to some friends. And that is all.

Also, on a side note, if you're the kind of person, who says 'Ghajni!' everytime someone talks about memory loss or worse, short-term memory loss, i hate you. I also hate you if you say 'Dostana!' everytime someone talks about homosexuality. Okay? Okay.

Oh, and I suck at cheering people up.

Buh-bye.

[me to s1: Please koi title batao post ka.
s1: Shhh.
me: Please.
s1: Shhh.me: Please na. Kuch bhi boldo. Just say something.
s1: No name face.
me: Thats a song.
s1: Its an album.
me: Okay.]

P.s. I’m happy.

I found a new place to sit on my terrace. It’s a brick. And its very comfortable.

I made goood coffee today. Drank it while sitting on the brick.

Went out for lunch. With friends. Fun. As always. They make me happy. They hated my watch, but that’s okay. Going to meet them again on Monday.

Had 4 dreams last night. Same-ish theme, different stories.

I look nice today.

I read about Endorphins today. I always knew what they were, but what I didn’t know was that the word itself comes from ‘endogenous morphine’. Nice, no?

I found a new happy song for myself today.

Just now:

s1: Parhti kyun nai ho?

me: Pata nai.

s1: Batao! Parhna nahi hai?

me: Pata nai.

s1: Exams kab hain tumharay?

me: Pata nai.

s1: Abhi tak nai pata chala?

me: Pata nai.

s1: *stares at me*

me: *stares back* What?

s1: Batao!

me: Kia?

s1: Choti bachii! Parho tum.

me: ahan.

s1: UFFFF!

s1: Book laao apni tum. Kuch nai aata tumhe. Kyun nai samajhti ye baat tum?

me: pata nai.

…

Annoying s1 is fun.

I took two pictures, while studying. Have ay look.

Please don’t kill me if I have uploaded this picture before, because I'm getting the feeling that I might have.

Oh and you know what will make me happy? If Noah Wyle plays Steve Jobs in the new Steve Jobs movie. Which reminds me, I need to watch Pirates of the Silicon Valley again. Yessir, I do.

Okay byebye.

iDream.

I had another series of weird dreams last night.
So here's what i remember.
Im sitting in my hostel room with my roommates when these men come, who're supposed to teach us some experiment about how animals respond to pain. A guy brings up a cute little kitten and starts torturing it. The kitten starts to cry, and the guy keeps showing us its tears. 'See? See? It responded to pain', the guy says. Then he brings this bigger animal, which kinda looks like a cat but isn't really one. He makes a vertical cut in its head, about 2 inches. Blood oozes out. But the animal feels nothing. And then i go 'Hmm..Whattay cute creature'. The guy's like 'You think so?' , and then makes the animal open its mouth. Its mouth, apparently is huge, and has a built-in..wait for it... purple octopus. Weird octopussy arms keep coming out of its mouth, which is when the guy warns us to not let it sting us, because then we'd get 'Opsis Heamosis'. No idea what that is.
That was pretty much it. Except there were other random scenes.
One was where im stuck in traffic. Traffic consists of a large number of carraiges. Driven, not by horses, but camels. They're supposed to take everybody to the examination hall.

Then there was one, with my cousins dancing on a new bollywood song. And one where my new watch stopped working.

And then one, where my friend N calls me up to tell me that i forgot Malone at her palace. And Malone, apparently, was my air-conditioner.
..yeeah.

I want a moon.

Sat for an hour on the terrace. Watched the moon play hide and seek with the evil black clouds. Wanted to steal that glowy white ball of perfection and keep it in my pocket. Got bit by a dozen mosquitoes.
..Totally worth it.

Long post iz happin.

Too much lazyness. Too many donuts. And popcorns and movies. And sleeping even when I'm not sleepy. Tomorrow's the 13th. I need to start studying again. That's the problem with being at home though. I get so relaxed, i get so caught up in being at home, that studies don't really feel like a priority. It's one of the reasons I keep insisting my parents to let me go back to the hostel soon and get my studies done. Properly. But i'm here for at least a week more. So I'll have to make a routine for myself. A schedule, or whatever. Schedules suck, btw. Because I hardly ever follow them. But they're important, in a way, cuz they give me perspective. So yeah, I'll make one.

My mind actually, is pretty...preoccupied. There's no place for Biochem tonight. At all. Which is why, i thought watching movies one after another would be a good idea. I also got some reading done. And some sleeping. And I spent time with Mother. I had time to read blogs too. But then halfway through the movie, I thought I'd go get fresh. Take a shower. And I did. And I've decided that I need to take a walk. On the terrace. With coffee. Suprisingly, I feel like having Juice instead. Cold juice. Pineapple or Orange. Nestle's bitter orange. Not the normal orange. I feel like having that. But we're out of juice, so I'll have coffee instead. On the terrace. With songs. Happy songs. I need endorphins. And after that, I'll give Biochem a shot. The purpose of which, will be just to get me in the mood for studying. Because its okay if i don't get any studying done tonight, but I definitely have to start tomorrow. And if im not in the mood by tonight, I'm going to end up wasting the entire day tomorrow too. Which can't happen. So yeah. Biochem. Tonight. Hopefully.

I had a realy weird dream last night. Well. One of many. I was sitting in my my Biochem Lab. No actually, it was my Physio Lab, and I was having my Final Biochem Practical. And there were two questions on it. I forgot one. But the other was about How to Ceramicize [cover in ceramic, apparently :s ] an Alligator. And I just stared at the sheet, and was like. Shit, I've studied this. Why can't I remember it. And then, all i wrote my answer sheet was this:
"Apparatus: Syringe, NaCO3, Distilled water.."
Thats it. And I was freaking out.
And then there was this other dream, where we're having a wedding of sorts, at our house. And my mom comes and tells me how everybody kept saying good things about me to her, and how they loved what i was wearing that day. And i asked her 'Oh they were? Like who?'. And mom says. "Lady Gaga".
Yeah. Ahan.

Okay awesome. Xmen-First Class just finished downloading.

I think Tim Burton ruined Charlie and the Chocolate factory, and Alice in Wonderland too. Why couldn't he just stick to the books? But No, that way, he couldn't show off his imagination could he? Has anyone seen the Oompas Loompas? I mean. They're frikkin UGLY. >.< And they dance weird. Urgh. Okay. Deep breath. Whatever. Isn't it weird that everytime i sit to write a blogpost, my dad calls me and asks for coffee? So i do need to go and make him coffee. And make some for me too. And then go walk on the terrace. And clear my head hopefully.
I did not want this post to end so soon. But. Oh well.
Im glad I wrote something at least. I've been writing shit and doing the whole [Ctrl+A + Backspace] thing a lot lately. So. Yeah. Achievement.
Im hoping to write more and more and more in this place in the upcoming days. I need to.
Yeah. Okay. Bye.

The north is to south what the clock is to time.
There's east and there's west and there everywhere lying.
I know I was born and I know that I'll die.
The in between is mine.
I. am. mine.
Isn't Pearl Jam awesome?

Carpal Tunnel Slug

Hi.
I got home a few hours ago. It was a long journey. It was a little tiring, considering the fact that I was sitting on the aisle seat once again. Even though i originally had the window seat. Which the hostess made me give up, because she had to keep her luggage there. =\ [How rude of her]. What was nice though, was that the woman i sat next too was also reading Atlas Shrugged. That was interesting.
Anyway. Its colder than Lahore here. Which makes me SO excited and happy! Winters, are just round the corner. *jumps with excitement*
I spend two days at N's before coming here. I had SO much fun. We always have fun together, which has made us realize that we should hang out more often. And we will. InshAllah. Yay. I went shopping with her too. And got lots of stuff for myself. Including a watch. I call it my Retarded Cartoon watch. But its so awesome, it makes me happy every time i check the time. =] Here's a picture.

So yeah. Its so Me.

s1 just came back from her Maternity Ward duty. She has gross stories to tell =] .
I bought huge bags of Top Pops. And I'm addicted to them. Because they're the love of my life.
Also, I got a haircut. Yay.
And. I sort of have zero tolerance for lameness right now. I am in no mood of putting up with people being lame, and useless with me. Ew.

Okay, I'll write more later. I do have lots to write. I haven’t been writing much lately. For now, here's a painting N's little sister made for me while i was there. <3

p.s. The title. Is a track by Buckethead. Whose music im totally blown away by these days. *.* This one, I don’t like that much. But the name’s funny. So. Yeah.

Morning.

Coffee, elevates my mood. Always.
I'd have it three times a day if i could. But i'm sticking to 1-2 for now. Anyway.

I like this morning. Its ten a.m. I woke up an hour ago, had maceroni, watched tv. And made myself some mild coffee. I slept in my drawing room last night. S2 tipped me off. She told me that day that if i wanted to sleep really really well, i should sleep on the drawing room sofa. And so, last night i did. And omG. It was.. Heavenly. Im in love with that sofa now. Its dreamy.
I need to re-heat my coffee. Okay done.
So yeah. I feel fresh.
I just have the fan on. Its not hot at all.
I ran on the treadmill yesterday, for fifteen minutes. Just to feel fresh. It was fun. I must do it again today. Feeling fresh, is important.

Oh God, i love this morning.

Happytired.

There's something so amazing about having a jampacked schedule ahead of you. One with no studying involved either. I have one. These days. There's so much going on right now. I think i should write stuff down in points. So, yeah. Here I go:

* I got done with my Sendups, yesterday. Woah. Can't believe it was yesterday. Anyway. Yeah. Yesterday. And i came home on the 6pm Daewoo. Slept in my own bed at night. Woke up all fresh. Woke up early, 8-ish. And had a nice little breakfast. 

*Met my friends again. My awesome home-friends. They're stupid. And nuts. And we all have issues. But I love being with them. And i love meeting them everytime i come home.

*Got to go to the dentist tomorrow. Got to buy new shirts tomorrow. Got to get weird Thyroid test done tomorrow. And a few other things. Tiring.

*Going to spend Saturday at my friend's. Going to spend the night there. Really looking forward to it.

*Have to head back to the hostel soon. Got to start studying. Got to plan out everything.

*I feel lucky. Right now. For a number of reasons:
- Im free.
- Im home.
- My family's going nuts trying to convince me to stay home. Which makes me feel ultra-important.
- s1's baking cookies in the kitchen. Always wanted to have a sister who baked\cooked. Finally got my wish.
- Im doing so many things right now. That makes me happpy. Being busy, makes me happy.
- I looked nice today.
And then there are other things, that i don't mention here. So count those too.

*Im super sleepy. But I have to watch Harry Potter 7 with s1. She asked me to have coffee, stay up, and watch the movie with her. But Im trying to avoid caffeine these days. Overloaded on it during the exams. So i don't know. Movieee!

*Audioslave. I am the highway. WHAT AY SONG!

*I feel like a gypsy. Hostel, Khala's house, home. Going back and forth. I sort of hate it. And love it.

* I told s2 today that I was 'falling in hate with' her. Then we laughed.

Yeaaah, I guess thats it for now.
Whattay weird haphazard post btw. Bleh.

Rain more.

OmG, the weather these past two days? Amazing.
Its almost cold. O.o
It rained all morning today, which made me cheerful even while i waited two hours for my turn in my Physio viva. Lost my umbrella. And walked from the hostel gate upto my block, in the rain. Again, amazing.
Came to my room and slept. Havent been able to sleep in the afternoons these days even after staying up all night. Weird. Anyway. Got up. Went out with r1 to the hostel cafe. Had hot noodles+vegetables. Yum. Its so pretty outside. I can't get over it.
Amazing, amazing, amazing.

..And now, anatomy calls. -.-
Bye.

Here's a list of 10 random things that i love or hate.


1. I fall in love with my hands (Forearm included), everytime i complete a task, a tiring one, like writing a long exam or lifting something heavy. I love the idea of being able to do stuff with them. My hands, i.e. Yeah.

2. I hate uncertainty. In my plans, i.e. It annoys me. But yeah, the general uncertainty and vagueness in life, i appreciate. Adds salt to things.

3. I love jeans. I'd wear them all the time if i could. (not really, but just saying yknow).

4. I hate hi-necks. Theyre uncomfortable and weird.

5. I love falling asleep in places other than the bed. Those make the best naps.

6. I hate it when people ask for favors in their weird pleasing manipulative self pitying ways.

7. I love people who appreciate craziness. There's no fun if you're not even a little crazy. Crazy, is important.

8. I hate it when cakes have pineapple slices in them.

9. I love the smell of old stationery.

10. I hate not having anything to watch on tv, while im eating.

Weird morning update.

This shall be a random update. Well, not that random. Just an update about whats on my mind right now. Whatever.

Just woke up. S2 called and woke me up. I sent her a voice clip saying 'Hi im Forrest, Forrest Gu-ump'. Haha. Okay. Not in a good mood. I slept for only about 2 hours. Was in a weird subconscious state even then. Woke up with a stupid irritated feeling in my stomach, i blame the coffee i had last night. Haven't had anything since. And my mouth feels all sore. S2 says its the stress ulcers. :/ i'm also annoyed because tomorrow, i have my physio exam. Fun.

I've been watching all these random movies on tv lately, and what is uup with the brides in the movies? Why do they wait to get to the altar before they make all kinds of sudden decisions about their life? Acha, fine, bhaagna hi hai, to there must be a side door or a side entrance/exit from where she could prolly make a quiet exit, but no. She HAS to run the entire length of the aisle, burst open the doors and make her grand exit. Bleh. Drama queens, sub.

And then, there's another thing. Yknow how, the guy/girl in the movie always starts telling the guy/girl they're into, this wannabe cute story about a 'special' place of theirs, could be anything, a park, museum, beach, anything, that their 'dad/mom/grandpa always used to bring them to', and how they told them some shit story about how safe and awesome it was, and how they always ended up there to feel 'safe' there again? I hate that. It's lame.

I feel cranky.

The point is, exams are not a good time for me. That is, the day before the exam. I'm fine generally. Exams have a way of bringing out my worst moods.

I need to get busy. Do something else, except studying. And stressing. OmG. A mosquito bit me. Dengue's in the air these days. Stay away from me. :/ Anyway. I need to be so busy. To not have time for anything. To physically wear myself out. Aaah. But that can't happen till after my proffs. I'm just going to be annoying-busy till then. Need the fun-busy.

I feel like i need to whine. But i don't want to. But that's what I have been doing. But whatever. But okay. But its 8 20 a.m. But i had to be up and studying by 8. But what about breakfast. But okay. Lets stop with the buts.

Long day ahead.
But Bye.

Happy 20th, N!

Its my friend N's birthday today.
I called her at 23:55.

*bell rings*

N: A, abhi paanch min rehtay hain!

Me: tsk! Badtameezi nai karo ub. Nai rehtay. .. Balkeh rehtay hain, i know. But phir twelve bajay log call karainge aur drama karainge to main to abhi hi karoongi.

N: haha, haan drama karainge.

me: so. HAPPPYYY BIRTHDAYYYYYY!

N: thankyou.

me: ye kia hota hai. Thankyou. Excitement show karo.

N: mujhay nai samajh aata aur kia boloon.

Me: Say 'yayiieeeee, thaaankkyouuuuuuu'.

N: acha.

Me: So. Okay. OMG N, you're not a teenager anymoreee! Tumhari teenage khatam ho gyii!

N: haaaan, ho gyee.

Me: Tum phir se mujh se bari ho gyi. You're 20, im still 19. Meri to teenage rehti hai. Muahahahahaha.

N: hahah, kitni meannn ho aap.

me: hahah. Yes. :) so. Cake etc ka kia scene hai?

*we start talking about cakes and all when suddenly*

N: acha mujhay aur log phone kar re hain bye.

*beep*


.. Yeah. Happy Birthday to my only Best Friend. :D

p.s. I think i did enough to pass my exam. The one i was fretting about, in the previous post. Heh.

Pre exam weirdness.

I have my first paper in a couple of hours.
I think i have about 25-30% of it prepared.
This, freaks me out.
But i'm tired of freaking out. And i'm tired of finding it funny. Its not funny anymore.
I can't stop imagining myself in that stupid exam hall, sitting there, all cluless and lost, watching others frantically fill page after page. Yeah, not a good image.
Just about two more hours to go.
I just don't like to fail. I don't. -.-

Mad 6 a.m conversations.

At 6 30 a.m, s2's tired of studying surgery and i'm not liking physio very much either. When suddenly:

S2: A, would you like to do a submandibular excision?

me: No i don't.

s2: You don't?

me: well, on you maybe.

s2: but i don't have a tumor.

me: then i'll do it anyway.

S2: i'll do the Tracheostomy on you.

me: no. I will do the tracheostomy on you.

s2: no. You can do it on someone else. If you're going somewhere and somebody can't breathe, you'll be like hey! Letme through. Imma do the tracheostomy, because best sister ever has taught me how to!

me: yes! I will do that.

s2: yes. So you'll take your scalpel and...

me: but i don't have a scalpel. Im in a park and a girl's dying. I dont carry my scalpel around with me!

s2: okay then take a knife and..

Me: but i dont carry a knife with me either! Do you think im ay gangster man?

s2: no but there a people around. They'll have knives?

me: all they all gangsters man?

s2: okay but you need a knife.

me: can i do it with a kitchen knife? Can i do it with my nail?

S2: okay A, you can do it with your nail.

Me: but i dont have ay nail. :(

s2: Do it with a rock.

me: can i do it with a muddy rock?

s2: you'll have to do the aseptic technique on it, then you can do it with the rock. :)

Me: can i just lick the rock?

s2: okay you can just lick the rock. And do it with the rock.

Me: okay khewllxx. I will do the trach- .. Trache- .. Tracho-

s2: learn the name first, you bimbo.

me: what bimbo? I know the name!

s2: don't act like a bimbo. Learn the name. Its Tracheostomy.

me: im not a bimbo. I'm a Tracheostomer! :D


.. The end.

Hulk-like.

I am so angry. I feel like The Hulk. Except that i don't. But it expresses how angry i feel atm. But I'm not that angry really. More like annoyed, and frustrated. And angry. Annoyed, actually. Oh well.
*deep breath*
Biochem awaits.

iHate.

Hate. This. Sinking. Feeling.
And this caffeine induced stress.
And the heart's anatomy.
And panic attacks.
And this sinking feeling. Hate.

Best sister ever. -.-

*Me listening to songs on my handsfree*

s2: Isko koi iPod le ke de.
Me: Nai. Kyun?
s2: Phone pe gaanay sunti hai. Ipod lo.
Me: To normal baat hai, phone pe sunna. Sab suntay hain. Jab phone hai to kyun loon ipod?
s2: Normal nai hai. I have one, s1 has one. Tum bhi lo.
Me: Nahi chahiye mujhay iPod kia hai!!

s2: Main to le ke doongi.

Hahahaha.



While posting this on the blog.

Me: Title kia likhoon?
s2: ...Best sister ever!
me: o.O


After 5 minutes of thinking:

Me: Kia rakhooon yaaar title?
s1: A, get over it yaaar.
Me: Imma write this too.

I like chewy candies.

I've realised that when i drink too much of water that is neither lukewarm nor cold, but somewhere in between, it only makes me thirstier. :/

I'm doing Anatomy these days. Hated it during college. But now that i've tried covering biochem and physio, anatomy looks pretty cute in comparison. Not because its easier, its harder actually, but biochem and physio are just dull. And they go on and on about stuff that i don't care about. Anatomy is very clear cut and nice.
Thats my opinion nowadays, i don't know how long its going to last.

s2 is coming in a week or so. She told me she was going to make me study a lot once she's here..which is a good thing, cuz God knows i reeeeally need to study more. Haha. She kept sending me the craziest voiceclips on Whatsapp today and i sat there alone in my room laughing like an idiot.

Then it started to rain. And i went up to the terrace as usual. Just sat there, had coffee and took in the prettyness of it all. Im going to miss it. Once i go back. Lets not talk about going back now shall we?

Had a really yummy Sehri. Cheese omellete without the veggies, 2 nuggets and a kabab. Yumm. So full. :/

S1 has started baking. Made a red velvet cake that i ate the last piece of, yesterday. Now i want something new.

The gel pen i was using since the past few days, is almost out of ink. I need a new one. And i also need a haircut. And a new bottle of coffee.

Okay bye.

One of those moments.

You know how Sometimes things get so pretty, that you don't know what to do about it. You wish you could just sing at the top of your voice out in the garden where its raining like it hasn't in a long time. But you don't cuz your neighbours will think you're nuts? When you think that if you were a Sim, the diamond floating above your head would be bright bright green? And when you wish that you could save the moment with the click of your camera? When its one of those moments when its Good to be alive?

Its one of those moments.

My parents are awesome.

I know i know. Ive already said this a thousand times, but omG, mom dad are actually pretty awesome. But what brought this sudden surge of love on, you ask? Ill tell you.

Since i'd already finished every last one for s1's brownies, i was dying to eat something sweet today. Mom brought fruit, but i needed brownies, or cookies, or donuts, or cake. Well, you get the idea. So i said to mom, we'll go out tonight and imma buy me some donuts. Mom said sure. Dad came home. Had food. Went for taravee. Then came back, And sat down to relax. I went upto him and was like 'lez goooo :D' . He was like where? I said, donuts pliss? :( and he's like, right now? Its almost eleven. Im like. Pliss? :< . Dad said no. Then mom went all cute, and started telling him how i'm so awesome and i should get donuts if i wanted them even if it was late. Dad was like, im tireeeed. So i said oh well, alright. We'll go tomorrow. Its okay.
I said this and came upto my room. And in about ten minutes, mom called, and was like. Get ready, we're going.
Awwww.
And so we went :D and i got donuts, and junk food, and ABC waali jelly, and credit too.

My parents spoil me. <3

So they're awesome.

Tiny bloodsucker.

There's this insect in the room. Its minute. About an ant's size maybe. You can hardly see its wings.. YET. IT HAS BITTEN ME IN 5 DIFFERENT PLACES ALREADY. I can't even see the damned thing. =[ Invisible sneaky MACHAR type.

Anyway. Im hungry. Im craving Chocolate ice cream. I very rarely crave for it. But I do. Right now. Im going to eat soon. Before Sehri. Mom brought Cream rolls for me. Yuuurmm.

I have btw, realized that I am a lot like my dad. Personality wise. Seriously.

The tiny shit just bit me 3 more times. :S Its out to get me. Little devil. >.<

Going to meet friends tomorrow. Aftari.

Byebye.

Like a stone.

So I am not in a good mood. What are you going to do about that?

What is up with this shortage of time? The whole exam thing. This does not make me happy. And I can NOT study in the afternoon when I haven’t eaten anything, or had my coffee either. =[ Whattay.

Mom made really yummy chaat today. And pakoray. I ate too much. Then slept too much. Then had coffee. Which was way too watery. Looked like I’d added the milk just for the color. Then started studying, but panicked too much. Thought too much. Too much happened. But no studying was done.

Planet of the Apes. I mean. Seriously? What kind of people make movies like that? I’d like to know what exactly was going through their minds when they decided that making a movie about human like apes taking over the world would be just what the movie watching population needed? And what I’d like to know more than that, is what was going on in their ape obsessed heads when they decided that they needed to make a SEQUEL to that? I mean. SERIOUSLY? PLANET OF THE APES? AGAIN? Pagal hain?

Oh well. =[

Whatever.

My phone has cancer btw. Check this out.

It can’t be cured, and it spreads.

Its almost 1 am. And I'm slowly turning into a robot.

That’s all.

Been a good two days.

It has been a good two days. Fun. I really really badly needed this. A break from the 24/7 guilt of not studying for my exams. Yesness.
Im still out of city. We head back home tomorrow. I really wanted all of us (my family + cousins) to go up north to Nathiagali etc because all of my friends are either there or have been there and back. And they're all raving about how amazing the weather is up there. But nobody in my family was really up for it, except me, so we ended up staying here. But! Even though im super bummed about not being able to go north, im glad still. Cuz ive had alot of fun still. I love being with my family, which includes me khala's and cousins and all that. Everybody has issues, everybody acts mean at times, and causes family problems, but i still love them no matter what. Cuz they're family. And i like being with the family. They're fun and retarded. I dont care.
Its 2 am and we just got back. Im so full. And so happy.
Im happy. And i think being happy calls for a blogspost.

so yeah okay. Movie time.
Buhbye.

Duck and Run.

I got my computer fixed. But the internet’s being an ass. So is the computer actually. My dad gave it to this guy to get it fixed, who apparently calls himself scorpiaN, and likes to name my windows account scorpiaN, everytime he fixes my pc. Which is twice, actually. So scorpiaN, turns out, did not really fix my pc. I realized that today. It still has issues. Weird random errors. And I can’t even open my Notepad file on the desktop. I double click it and nothing happens. Boo you ScorpiaN. You suck.
Its 3 am. And I’m not studying. WHY DO I DO THIS TO MYSELF?
Btw, I wanted to write a sane blogpost tonight. Something nice. And meaningful. But my brain’s not feeling upto it. Bohut nakhray ho gyay hain iskay. -.-
I don’t feel like doing anything right now. I just want to waste my time. Which is so not healthy. Not these days. When time is so important. But I still want to waste it. Nai parhna. =]
I’m being a little reckless with myself these days. Doing whatever I feel like really. I’m thinking a lot, and also not thinking at all. Thinking about the wrong things actually, instead of thinking about things that are important. Like my exams.
I need to shift the Tv in my room.
Okay You know what? Words don’t like me. They just don’t. Cuz if they did, they’d help me out when I needed them. Especially now when I have so many weird and important thoughts on my mind, that need to be saved. They should help me get them out on paper. But no. All I come up with is. I need to shift the Tv in my room. That’s just great isn’t it? =]
Okay whatever. I have decided I’m not going to study tonight. I will waste yet another day. I’ll go to sleep soon.
Buhbye.

p.s. Duck And Run is just the song that I'm listening to. Heh.

Of nails and coffee.

I want Coffee. New kinds of nice coffee. I miss cold coffee. Hmm. I shall make it someday. Im tired. I went to Sd's place today. We had to study. I dozed off everytime she left the room for something. And i had all kinds of weird 2 minute dreams. Lol.
Im about to take a nap. Then maybe some coffee. I need to get Iced Teabags for myself. I don't know how they're going to taste though. But i have to try.

I downloaded a new Spongebobsquarepants theme for my phone. Its stupid.

I've finally grown my nails a bit. Underline the Bit part. Im proud of myself for that. Because as i've already mentioned before here on my blog, I C.A.N.T grow my nails. I always cut them as soon as they show signs of growing. Because I can't hold a pen properly when my nails are longer than usual. I feel weird typing. And texting too. But those aren't the major factors actually. Its just that I keep picking at my nails all the time until they get broke =< . I be mad.

Okay. Enough about the nails.
Im tired. Bye.

Terrace.

I love my terrace. I love going upstairs whenever it rains. And I love to have coffee in the rain. With music. I love looking at nothing special while sitting there. The road infront of the house. The houses on the side. The trees. The street light. That dark blue sky. I love that colour of the sky btw. I love that feeling.

Ive missed this.

Smile.

I feel good. Met my friends again. Had a great time. I looked nice.

I feel lucky right now.

For all the things I have.

“And that’s why I smile.
It’s been a while
Since everyday and everything has felt this right..”

Days go by.

Today's the fifteenth. Todays the day i officially had to start studying. For my exams. Which start on the 5th of September. Im so not in the mood though. Today was such a waste. Mom is funny. She wants me to eat all day. Here I'm worried that Im gaining weight, and there she is making me eat more and more.
Im watching a random movie on Star Movies. Its called Lock Up. It has Sylvester Stallone in it. Eeek. They're making cockroaches race and then betting on em. =\
And i think now they're gonna kill his friend. Shit its 2 am. I should study something atleast.
By the way. I went to My friends place yesterday, with my other friends. OmG it felt SO good to be with them again. I actually felt like i was Back, yknow? Nice. =] Yes i was right, they're gonna kill his friend. I can't watch people fight. I just CAN NOT! I hate fights. I'd do anything to avoid them. Okay sylvester stallone is angry. He killed the other guy i think. OMG somebody just stabbed him. This movie is sad.
Anyway. Im going to meet my friends again tomorrow. FUN. Ive borrowed these clothes from s1 that i'm going to wear tomorrow. I looked nice when i tried them on. =]
Sylvester Stallone a.k.a Frank is planning to make a run for it. OmG the other guy, Dallas, betrayed him and now he's caught. =[ SAD MOVIE :@ . Ooo oo. He's running again. Okay whatever.
So anyway. s1 has this nude coloured Nail Colour and I really like it. Its the only one i like. I put it on yesterday :D . Heeee heee. Yeah whatever.
Okay bye.

Blog overhaul : I finally did it!

As you can appearently see, I FINALLY GAVE MY BLOG AN OVERHAUL :D .
Ive been meaning to do it since ages, but i never got around to doing it. I browsed through a billion templates, but i couldn't find even ONE that was 'me'. Which made me think that maybe I didn't need a big fancy new template anyway. I could take a simple black one and personalize it myself and fall in love with it. And that's what i did. I took the simple Awesome.Inc template from blogger. Changed the background, changed the font, changed the colours, (which are actually the same as before), changed the layout a teeny bit, made a new header, and i was done. And i love it. Oh and as you can see, I made a new page. The iQuote page that i wanted to create so badly. Ill be updating it frequently inshAllah.

IM SAD ABOUT ONE THING THOUGH =[ . I forgot to save a pic of my blog's look before the change. =[ Sniff. Very, very, very unfortunate. Sniff. =[

But okay anyway. Newness. Fresh air. Yay.

Tell me what you think. =]

I be want new things everyday.

I am human. I always want new things. Here’s a list of somethings I really really want.

1. I want to go abroad. Not permanently. But for sometime. Grey’s anatomy tells me that its always raining in Seattle. Maybe I should move to Seattle for sometime.

2. I want an assistant. Who’ll do all the boring work in my life. Like. Taking my dishes back to the kitchen after I'm done eating. Organize my books. Remember where I put my glasses. Secretly throw away really old stuff of mine that I don’t really use but can’t let go off. Give Mr.Cuddles a washing every now and then. He gets dusty. Etc etc..

3. I want to go running at 5 am every morning on a long long road. And then have a nice breakfast with something nice to watch on the Tv.

4. I want to randomly meet new people, and talk to them for hours.

5. I want to be excellent at one or two things atleast.

6. I want to get thinner. And then buy a whole lot of new clothes. And then wear a new dress everyday.

7. I really like Robert Downey Jr. Its not something I want. But, I just really really like him. That’s it.

8. I want to be interviewed by James Lipton on ‘Inside the Actors Studio’.

9. I want to have a long conversation with a friend, who I haven’t talked to in a long time.

10. I want to invent something. [mehhh, not really]

11. I want a gray shirt. Lots of gray shirts. Nice ones. Oh. And pants too. Gray. And black. And blue. And white. And that weird offwhite creamish colour. Oh and a blood red shirt too. Lots of new bloodred shirts. Andand. A dark blue one. The shade of blue that I saw my cousin wearing that day. It was so nice.

12. I want to ice skate.

13. I want to be the best person I can, and stop being lazy about it.

14. I want to experience the feeling of being High. On a real drug. Ooooo.

15. I want to have my words quoted and remembered by people. All over the world. Awesome.

Word trivia :D

One of the many things about me, is that I love Word Trivia. Words. Useless words, anagrams, weird words, whatever. I like Words. They’re nice.

SOO. I was just googling stuff, and I thought I’d share some of the interesting trivia I found. Here you go:

- Switching letters is called spoonerism. For example, saying jag of Flapan, instead of flag of Japan.

- "Rhythm" and "syzygy" are the longest English words without vowels. [See, how nice I was, adding a hyperlink for the word and all =>]

-One of the longest English words that can be typed using the top row of a typewriter (allowing multiple uses of letters) is 'typewriter.' [This is fun].

- No words in the English language rhyme with orange, silver or purple.

- The phrase "sleep tight" originated when mattresses were set upon ropes woven through the bed frame. To remedy sagging ropes, one would use a bed key to tighten the rope. [Included this one, incase you, like me have always wondered what people meant when they told you to ‘sleep tight’. o.O ]

- The naval rank of "Admiral" is derived from the Arabic phrase "amir al bahr", which means "lord of the sea".

-The abbreviation for pound, "lb.," comes from the astrological sign Libra, meaning balance, and symbolized by scales.

-Okay I found these two  too. They’re clever : [ew I hate this huge smiley]anagrams

"To be or not to be: that is the question, whether its nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune."
ANAGRAM:
"In one of the Bard's best-thought-of tragedies, our insistent hero, Hamlet, queries on two fronts about how life turns rotten."

"That's one small step for a man, one giant leap for mankind." (Neil Armstrong, on the moon)
ANAGRAM:
"A thin man ran; makes a large stride, left planet, pins flag on moon!  On to Mars!" "

Okay enough. You can google and confirm these, or correct these or whatever, if you want. As far as I know, these are legit. =D

Enjoy.

p.s. I just realized that Sword is an anagram of Words. Nice. Considering.. yknow. Words and sword. Get it? Okay whatev.

BYE

The summer feeling.

I'm getting that feeling these days. The summer feeling. The A.C. The waking up in the afternoon. Staying up all night. Watching old episodes of old TV shows. Eating, and eating some more. Reading novels. Eating fruits with mom and dad at night. Making coffee.

I like this feeling.

But I also need something more to do. I need to find a use for alll this free time that I have. I want to have a busy day. A busy, fun, day. There's nothing much to do here, but. =\

I came across this:

"And those who were seen dancing were thought to be insane by those who could not hear the music."
— Friedrich Nietzsche

Whattay thing to say. iLove.

I have to start studying from the 15th. Approx. for my exams.

I have changed. I know it. I can feel it. I don’t know what changed me, but something did. And its not so bad. =]

Onychotillomaniac

Hello I'm back. Again. So. I'm using my Windows Live Writer after so long. I love writing on this. Today is such a lazy day. One of many, that are yet to come. But I intend to change this. I intend to change this lazy sleepy routine of mine, where I do nothing all day except lie down, watch TV shows, and eat, and sleep.

I wanted to have coffee today, but then I didn’t. I don’t know why. I want winters back. Hmph. Okay. I HATE Chinese movies. They’re so fake. And all they do is their fake fighting. And fake weird accent. And fake-ness.  They’re so harsh. Blekh.

I’d like to spend a year abroad. I’d like to work. I’d like for it to be rainy all the time. I’d like to walk, walk, and walk all day. In streets. Wet streets.

When will that happen? =[

The lights just went out. Abhi to aayi thi. –.-

s1 and s2 want me to make popcorns. They’re watching Vampire Diaries. I want to watch something else. You know what I want to watch? I want to watch a looooooooooong Period Drama. I will look for one when the light comes. I love that era. It was so fancy =D .

I have seen lately, that there is way too much hate in the world. People hate everything and everyone. Too easily. I mean. CALM DOWN people. Give everybody a chance. =\

Okay. Time for you to learn something new:

Onychotillomaniac – Is someone who is always picking on his\her nails. (i.e. Me)

We’re listening to s2’s crazy voice clips that she sent me one day when I was in the hostel. LOL. But obviously that’s not funny to you so okayokayokay.

Okaybye.

p.s I love s2 and my next post will be about her. <3

Lazy days.

Hello im home.
Ive realized that whenever Im home, all i talk about, is being home, and how awesome it is to be home. So i think, enough of that yknow. So okay.
Hi.
Mom and s1 made Pasta today. For the first time. It was YUMMAY! And then we watched the Wimbledon final between Djokovic (is that the spelling? Kinda twisted isn't it?) and Nadal. I was anti-Nadal. Nadal is funny. I mean, I don't hate him. But whatever. Federer is THE man. Totally.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. Sudden stomachache. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAa.

Okay.
I just had fruits. Mango and plums and leechi. I love this combo. Cherries were missing though. Me and s2 have been watching The Mentalist lately. Since yesterday, i.e. I like it. Although its totally like Sherlock Holmes. But i like it. Im also going to try out this new show called Lie to Me.
Body language and human behaviour fascinates me.
I'd like to read, and know all about it. That would be cool.
s1 wants her laptop right now. I want to stay up all night, and be online for hours and hours. That'd feel like summers. Vacations.
It feels like that right now too, but not too much. Whatever.

Can't believe im totally FREE. No tests, nothing.
This is the start of my Lazy days. I woke up at 2 pm.
Okay bye. :D
More later. Soon.

Leaving.

Today's my last day in the hostel. Im leaving in a few hours. Not going home directly i think. We all might go north. Its going to be fun if we do.
But whatever. OmG. Im finally free.
Im going home!

Icy cherries yo.

Yellow, peoples.
I just had tea and a butter croissant. Im so full. I had a little Biryani before that. I should eat minimal. I feel so healthy whenever i eat minimal.
I also had cherries in the morning. You know how i like to eat my cherries? I like to keep them in the freezer for some. Then i take them out after a while and they have this thin layer of ice on em. And ooooo. Then i eat em. Heavenly. Yum yum.
I finished The Client this afternoon. Wasn't as exciting and fast paced as the other grisham novels. The eleven year old kid was way too smart to be real. :/ Bleh.
OMG. I cannot contain my love for Atlas Shrugged inside me. I going to finish it over the summers. Im going to take my time. But i recently watched a couple of scenes from its movie, and i cant wait to watch it. Ofcourse no movie could ever do justice to it, but maybe it would come close enough. Eeee. It fascinates me. The book.
Oo. My roomate's here. We have to study Physiology together. Huge test coming, as usual. Blah.
Sooo. I gotta jet. But man, i have more things to talk about. So. Okay. Ill brb. Ill continue this later. Stay put.
Okay back. I didn't really study. We just talked. I had some more cherries. Yumyum.
People like me. :)

BTW. I've been very sucky lately. I havent been reading blogs nor commenting. I'll be a nice little girly when i go home, and will read all you peepils blogs. Okayokayokay? Okay.
byenow.

the 'other' phase.

It rained last night. And that made me miss home. Here, in the hostel, i have two phases. One is when i'm all positive, and having a good time with my roomates (almost), and liking the whole 'living in the hostel' experience. At those times, i say to myself, 'hey, this ain't so bad afterall'. And then there's the other phase. The gray phase. When little things that people do around me annoy me more than they normally do. When i hate living in the hostel, and when i feel like a square peg in a round hole (thats the term for it, no?). Im in that 'other phase' right now.
It rained last night, and i just went to sleep. I should've been out there, with my headphones and my thoughts and the rain, but i wasn't. I just went to sleep. Not like me. So not like me. I just didn't feel like it.
Is it wrong that the nerdyness of my college has started to bother me alot lately? I mean. One of them sucks up to this teacher so much. It pisses.me.off. It really does. And then the whole study-anytime-you're-free routine. See. Today's the second sunday that im spending here in the hostel instead of going to my khala's. I have a substage tomorrow that is very scary. So well. It was sunday so i was like, yayiee, ill get to sleep in today. And at 8 a.m in the morning, R1 (roomate 1) woke me up. And goes like:

r1: 'wake uuuuup. Don't you have to study?'
me: *grumpy* uhmm..what time is it?
r1: its 8! We have a substage tomorroww!
me: 8? OmG. Noo.. Im sleeping. Its sunday, its too earlyy!

At 11ish:
r1 and r2: Wake uuuuup! Its ELEVEN!
Me: sooooooo?
r2: *myname*, its ELEVEN!!
r1: yeaah, wake up, its ELEVEN! How much dyu want to sleep?
me: so whaaaaat? Why are you guys up so earlyy?
r1: i woke at 7:30.
r2: and i, at 8.
me: you guys are nuts. Let me sleeeep. >.<

... :/ . So yeah. Thats what I am like. I mean its obviously not their fault cuz they're used to waking up early. Its just me.
And ee, i don't like people doing all the extra unimportant topics for the test, and then if asked about it, go like 'haha, see im nuts, im doing the extra stuff' . Err okay. You have an option of not doing it. Whatever.
Im just annoyed, i don't even know why. Usually, i'm all chill. This phase is annoying.
Anyway.
im looking forward to tomorrow, cuz i get to meet two of my old friends. From back home. So thats nice. Hopefully.
Okay bye. -.-

Of survivor modes, and magnets.

I downloaded a new notepad like app for my cellphone on which i can write my blog and then post it online whenever i want. I like it. Yay. Its a fullscreen white page with a little black font. I like.
Anyway. So yes. I am on survivor mode. I turned it on yesterday. My survivor mode is awesome. Things just get easier during that. I make them easier for myself. I become more adaptable. Less lazier. Because i just think, that yknow, whatever, enough of the whining and complaining, i just need to get through this now. And then i actually, do, thankstoGod, get through whatever i need to get through. I have a huge number of tests coming up, with no time to prepare, coupled with a dire aching to go home for summer holidays. So i turned on my mode for this month. And i'm fine..so far.
I remember there was a time when i used to blog daily or with a day's gap. Good times. Now, i hardly get time. Oh my God, which reminds me...my pc's busted. It had this stupid virus in it, which i left untreated, thinking it would go away or stay dormant till i wanted it to..only it didnt. It took over my pc and started throwing lame errors at me. And now it won't start -.- . So much for staying dormant. I have to figure out a way to get it fixed without having to move around much.
Okay.
What else. I saw something today. And im officially grossed out by cats now. 'nuff said.
Imma have an energy drink at college tomorrow. I find it harder and harder to stay awake during lectures lately. My eyes, its like. I have magnets on my eye lid, and that place-where-the-eyelid-meets-when-you-close-your-eye. And so they're always attracted to each other, and no matter what i do, i cant keep them apart. I have to fight actual magnetic forces during class. Thats something right? And omG did i actually write this lame a paragraph? Sorry for wasting however many seconds of your life it took you to read this. Not the entire post, just this paragraph. About the magnets.okay? heeeh. :)
okay i should sleep now. Baaaye baaaaye.

Minitriphome 2.

Akon sang a hindi song. And it sucks. Can't do anything about it.

My minitriphome is actually a very mini trip. I leave tomorrow. I have huge scary tests coming up after this, and my preperation is nothing. So Im scared. Home is amazing. I CAN'T wait for July. I really really can't. I mean. Why won't July come already? Have so many hectic days before it comes though. This test and that test.
My issue is, that i don't know what my priorities are. I don't know if i want to do really good at studies, or if i want to just have fun, and do enough at college to pass the course. I really don't know. I want both. Somehow. And then! I have everybody (which is actually my family) , telling me that I need to take more days off college, and find time for fun. But my friends at college, and my roommates are all SO pro-studies, that even if i take everything lightly, watching them do so much makes me all guilty. Its messed up -.- So. Yes. I need to figure thigns out. For the next month, though, I know what i want. I just want to pass my tests and head back home. That's it.

I haven't been posting any pictures on my blog lately. I need to do more of that. Hmm.

I hate ironing clothes. Its such a hassle. I need a limitless supply of jeans, and tops that I can wear to college daily and not worry about a thing. Okay?

Other than that. Well. Im in a whiny mood. But I hate whining, because nothing good really comes out of it. It just makes me more anonyed, because I keep talking about one thing over and over again, and it doesn't go away. So whats the point really?

Bluekh. Whatever. More later.

p.s. Watched inglorious basterds again today. Fun.

Minitriphome. :D

Im home. Right now. In s1's room. In the A.c. I just woke up. About to have coffee. THEN, I have to study - unforunately. BUT. Im Home! It was a rather sudden plan. I had planned to go to college today and then start for home in the evening and reach at night, sort of. But. s2 and my cousin N intervened, and gave me this lecture about how i needed a break, and to take college less seriously. o.O They all think that i take it all way too seriously. I think it's because of the mahol around me. Im in the hostel, and EVERYBODY studies there, and there's not much else they do. So eventhough i make it a point to stay normal, I guess it sometimes rubs off on me, and I turn into this worrisome nerdy little thing who dies everytime she has a test. SO, i guess i welcomed this intervention. They kept me from going insane. Lol. And. I ended up skipping college today, and taking the 8:45 am bus home. =]

I WATCHED KUNG FU PANDA 2 YESTERDAY. IN 3d! OMG . I AM IN LOVE :) .
SERIOUSLY. Its way better than the first part. And I'm in love. Hayay. I need to watch it a couple of times more.

I like being reckless. This is my reckless phase. I like.

Okay okay i write more later okay?

Okay bye bye.

its 12:35 a.m.

*A crow shat(past tense of shit,yes) on my freshly washed black trousers and jeans.
*And i stared into a cats weird deep black eyes for fifteen seconds. It creeped me out.
*My stage went weird. Mcqs were shitty. I just guessed most of them. I have a feeling that all my guesses were wrong.
*Viva tomorrow. Lots to study. I hope my viva isn't with Dr.M. She's evil and she makes me uncomfortable during the viva. She's unpleasant.
*Me and roomates ordered chicken cheese shawarmas for us today. Not that nice.
*I feel like i've been spending all my money on food lately.
*Going to N's place tomorrow for the weekend. Fun!
*Its so humid and hot these days. I'm slowly melting away.
*I don't how to tell people my honest opinion without sounding rude or offensive. I dont say anything then. I never wanna be rude to anyone. People just dont like to hear the truth. :/
*and i love you a little less than beforeeee*.
*s2 hid my Atlas shrugged. I miss it.
* Vastus lateralis is originated from the upper part of the intertrochanteric line, the anterior border of the greater trochanter, the lateral lip of gluteal tubersity, and the lateral lip of linea aspera.
okay?
*bye.

Sunday nights.

I hate sunday nights. Im fine in the morning, but the nights? Hate those. I ALWAYS feel sucky at that time. Why though? I'll tell you. Because of the realization that i have college the next day. Because i have to go back to the hostel the next day. Because after every weekend i usually have a test coming up for which i never study at the weekend, eventhough i should have. Because i actually miss the people in my khala's house when i go back to the hostel. I miss being with people i know, and love. AND, because i hate having to wake up early the next day.
Reason enough right?
I thought i'd go out and have a good time with my people this weekend, but the plan kinda caught fire and exploded, even the ashes disappeared. I dont even know how. The day was a borefest.
I was/in such a dead mood today. I wasted my time and didnot study for my huge stage thats coming up. I should've. I didn't even complete watching 'the king's speech'. I did not re activate my internet account either. I lost my collegge overall somewhere. Disasterous? I blame me. Mostly.
Ive stopped praying regularly. I used to. But laziness has taken over. How can you want to do something so badly and then choose not to do it? Kinda contradictory it is. But well. It reminds me of this thing i read in Atlas Shrugged. It says
'Contradictions don't exist. If you find two ideas contradicting each other, check your premises. One of them will be wrong'. Something like that. I think i agree.
My friend Sd texted me tonight. And told me that she thought i was a great friend. She is not the type to say that. Not really. So it really lifted me up, her saying it like that. Yay me.
You know what i am right now? A leaf. In the wind.
I had haleem two times today.
My khala told me stories about her on-call duties in the hospital Emergency back in the day. Gross, sad and funny ones. I cant imagine myself doing all that. I can actually, a little. :D eeee.

okay bye. Ima try and sleep now. Too much info for all you random people out there.

P.s. Donald duck has a sister named Dumbella.
p.s.2. Somebody should write a song called 'sunday nights'.

Overload.

Craziness. Overloaded. Sleepy. Stressed out. Missing home. Imagining s1's Air conditioned room. Tired. Anxiety. Lack of social contact. Impatience. Dread. Annoyance. Fear. Exhaustion. Craziness.

Please go away.

Dead mousie.

A couple of mosquitoes just bit me. But thats nothing new is it?
I went a little nuts for a while today. Seriously I did. I sort of lost touch with reality for a while. But then I went online and ranted to s1 a bit, text-talked to s2 a bit. And ooh. When i went online, I caught up with an old friend which felt great. And another friend from back home. I feel so much better now. I actually do.
I have a substage coming up. The course is super long and I don't have much time. I should've studied alot today. And this weekend too. But I slept so much. Couldn't help it.
Watched a weird movie called Uncertainty on tv. The opening scene caught my interest. Tortured myself into watching it to the end. Realized that it wasn't worth it. Argh. Well. Whatever. It happens.
I need to write more about whats going on in my mind these days. Whats my blog for, right?
So yes, i will. Don't feel like it right now though. Cuz. I have to study, and i've already ranted enough for the day. So i'll do it next time I get a weirdness attack.
For sure.
Okay?
Okay. Let me show you a dead mousie i found.




Eee. Haha.

Zippy Racers.

. Its raining here today.
. I went outside on the balcony with my cup of tea and headphones. I sat for 2 minutes and then came back cuz the mosquitoes were thirsty.
. I wish I were home right now. s2 will be. Soon. I couldn't leave my classes here. So i stayed. Sad.
. I eat ice creams ALL the time these days. Seriously.
. Water melons are SUCH ay blessing in summers. Watery and cold and refreshing. Gottay love!
. My new friends here, think I'm a very indifferent person. They said that they think that I don't really give a shit about anything. I was very amused by this.
. I think Tangled is such a great movie :D . Very well balanced. Disneyness and new funnyness. I like.
. Ive been reading an article on Body Language. It is sooo interesting.
. Im awesome.
Thats about it.

Imma watch Grey's tonight. :D

I ate these chips called Zippy racers last night. Such a shitty name no? There was nothing Zippy Racer-y about it. Except that there was a toy car inside it. Pff.

iThink.

I finally got internet for my room in the hostel. Its a blessing. But i can't really blog from there, cuz my roommates are always around, and no, i don't tell everyone about my blog. Bleh. So yeah. Anyway. Im at my khala's for a day.
I had coffee. My khala's chef makes teh craziest coffee. I don't know what he adds in it, but its super effective. Half a cup, and im all awake and crazy like. But thats good. Cuz i need all that energy. Another test coming up, as usual. Now its like, I don't even feel the pressure that much. Its a routine. I have a test every other day. Its constant. I've just learnt to cherish the precious day or two that i get in between, where i don't have a test the next day.

If i weren't doing medicine, I think i'd like to be/do alot of things. I'd like to study Human Behaviour. Alot. With surveys and all. Or be a researcher. In a Hi-fi research unit somewhere, doing hi-fi stuff. I'd also like to write a novel. But I could never do that. Words don't like me. Coherent phrases don't like me either. So gotta drop the idea of the book. Mehh.

Other than that. I also think, that having two sisters is SO awesome. I mean. I can whine whenever I want. And being the youngest has its own perks. If im not talking to one of them, I can talk to the other. If i hate my friends, I still have people to talk to. And we kinda have the same core inside, so we get each other. Which is awesome. I like this whole `sisters` thing. Just saying.

Also, i think that people wear way too much make up. I can't make myself do that. It feels fake. I don't know. I mean. It hides my face. Weddings are fine. But i think makeup should be subtle. Not like face paint. I don't know. Doesn't look real.

And i think wearing printed shalwars with plain shirts is not a good idea. I don't like it.

Okay thats all. Baaye baaye.

Life is.

Life is beautiful. Its amazing. Its a rollercoaster ride. It tests you and tosses you around and then catches you just to push you over the edge again. It doesn't get boring. Ever.
Im alive. And im glad.
<3

A cat pee'd on my slippers.

Hasnt it been the longest time? Yes it has.
I have a test every other day. Its not even funny. Well, it is a little funny. I dont have time for anything. Literally. Any free time i get, i use it to catch up on my sleep or watch a movie. Thats all i do.
I watched Letters to juliet the other day. Everythings so typical these days. *danceee the night away, live your life hshagfufof*. Whatever. Laaaa lalalalalalalalaaaaaaaa.
Anyway.
I have so much to whine about, but somehow i dont want to spill it out here. I like my cute positive nicey blog. No black whiny-ness here. Not too much anyway. Some, i can do with. But no seriously, im such a whiner. Im a whine box. Push the button and i'll go on and on, unless you shut me up. Well no, i shut myself up. Soon. But whatev.
Im dying to eat cinnabon, and to buy an awesome new pair of jeans. I just cant seem to do any of those things. Something always happens. Its a curse.
The Hangover always makes me laugh.
Im skeptical of everything and everyone. How can one not be? I dont know. People are so weird. Im in that phase right now where i get really irritated by how people generally behave. They just follow each other all the time. Wierd herd mentality. And i HATE people who ask me for favors all the time. I love to help out everyone, i actually do. But when they just get all frank and keep asking for shit allll the time, that just puts me off. Majorly. I dont ask people for favors much. I dont like to. Ugh. I dont know.
I just had a kulfi.
okay bye. :>

p.s. The title of the post? Totally happened.

Moments.

*my cellphone rings*
Its Dad.

ME: jee?
DAD: haan.. Kia kar re ho?
ME: *laughs*. Kyun, coffee chaiye? =p
DAD: *laughs* naiii..
ME: *laughs*. Phir?
DAD: kia kar re ho?
ME: kuch nai. Bethi wi hoon. Popcorns kha ri thi.
DAD: s1 kidhar hai?
ME: idhar hi.
DAD: kia kar ri hai?
ME: aiwyeen. Hum aur mama baatain kar re thay.
DAD: achaa. Woo.. tv pe terminator 3 lagi wi hai..
ME: ooo-
DAD: dekhi wi hai?
ME: naii. Mainay one bhi nai dekhi wi. =p
DAD: achaa.. to.. Lagi wi hai.. Idhar aa jao kuch dair. Dekh letay hain..
ME: oo. acha haha aati hoon. Aa ri hoon. Bye.

Me to mom and s1:
Awww! Babas so cute. He said terminator 3 lagi wi hai, he wants us to spend time with him. Lets go sit in that room ^.^ .


These little moments mean the world to me.

I like saying ‘Hank’.

When I'm at home, I don’t feel different. I feel the same. I feel normal. The way I used to feel back when I used to be at home. The thoughts of going back are annoying. Black pastel lines in my bright multicolored thoughts.

s2 went back today. She couldn’t stay any longer cuz she can’t miss her clinics back there.

Today was a good day. I woke up around 12. Had last nights leftover Chicken spaghetti, with Grey’s Anatomy. Then zombied around while s2 packed stuff for going back. Watched more tv. Had a nice lunch around 5. Took a shower. Watched a bit of V for Vendetta again, with s2, which Chicken Cheese Balls, and popcorns. [Brb. Mom calling].

Back. She had called for food. Lol. Oh damn, I just remembered, I had to make coffee for dad. Ill make it after im done with this post. Anyway. Me and s1 are going shopping tomorrow. Then I’ll go to the dentist. Etc etc.

I’ve realized that I like pomegranate flavored stuff. =o .

Ever wonder why there aren’t really many people that you can talk, like, actually Talk to? For some reason, People don’t get half the shit I’d like them to get. =\ Its frustrating. Makes me not take them seriously.

Whatever.

 

 

 

 

 

Check this out. This is ay random claw that I found on the ground, in my college. Haha. Weird no? Eeek.

Imma do a picture post soon inshAllah. I have my camera while im here. So yay to that Ew. Where did this smiley come from? =\ Ugly live messenger smileys taking over my blog . EW. This is new =\ .

Okay bye.

E.T go home!

So. I'm finally settling in the lazy summery routine. At home. Its not hot here btw. Its still cold-ish, and we haven’t turned the fans on yet. So its all good. Anyway. I'm eating SO much here. Mom’s always bringing something awesome for us to eat, and then I can’t resist it and then I can’t stop whining about how fat I'm getting. Life's unfair. Why can’t I just eat all I want without getting fat? –.- Whatever.

I watched Harry Potter 7, and then Harry Potter 1 again, just for the sake of it, and it was fuuun. I'm going to watch Despicable Me and 127 hours, and all them new movies too, while I have the time.

My mom and dad are SO cute. I can’t tell you HOW much. I made coffee for dad after so long last night. And I went shopping with mom, for clothes. Mom’s so cute. She has Blood pressure issues, and she’s a doctor, and she still bought a packet of Salted Lays in the market, haha, which I snatched from her the second she picked em up. But lol, she’s funny. We watched 2012 together. Me and s1 had seen it before. Dad loves watching destructive stuff. Buildings falling, ground shaking, houses dying, the whole deal. So yeah, he enjoyed 2012. Cute.

I’ve decided to change my blog banner up there. I have an idea for it. Ill make one when I feel like it. That’s not going to be anytime soon but at least I have the idea. So. Maybe one day.

Aw man, home’s so sweet. I mean. Nothing special. Its just. Being back. To my life. I’ve missed this. And I think its unfair that I have to spend so much time apart from here. But then again, it was my choice. So. Gotta deal with it. I don’t regret going. Its just that its hard being away. Ofcourse it is. I knew it. So whatev. I'm good.

I'm LOVING Atlas Shrugged. Its refreshing. I love reading stuff that gives me a new perspective. I love it. I need to read a long War related novel next.

There’s this song. Called Astronomia. If I had to get high with a song in the background, this would be that song. Seriously.

And I also heard this song E.T by Katy Perry that’s stuck in my head.

I have to start studying for my post-spring-break-tests from tomorrow. Not looking forward to that. Bleh.

Okay more later. Byebye.

HOME.

IM HOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

:D MY ROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!

MY TEEEEEEEEVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

MY FAMILYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

I just woke up. I'm all yay!
Gotta go to the dentist today though. Annoying.

iFluctuate.

I'm at my khala's for the weekend. As usual. Got two tests coming up. Got to study for the two tests. Instead, im blogging, and watching tv shows, and having coffee, and sleeping, and eating chocolates. Im not even enjoying myself. I'm just like, mehhh.
Whatev. Im glad Im going HOME in a few days. After three months, ladies and gentlemen. THREE months. Can you believe that? =\ Weird ,is it not? I'm going to shop, and eat and sleep and eat and watch movies all night long, and catch up with s1, and mom and dad, and eat, and sleep, and stay online all night, and walk on my terrace and meet my friends and ALL THAT. InshAllah. I am going to do all that. *deep breath* . Just a few days more..

I'm wearing nice summery clothes. Its a purplish shirt with cute white dots on it. I like it. Oh and I hate it when girls wear plain shirts, with printed Shalwars. Its just not cool. I don't get it. =\

I watched Men of Honor that day. With my Roomies. Haha. But anyway. That movie. The guy. Who is so driven and hardworking. Made me wonder, if there are actually people like that around us. Are there? I haven't really seen any. Everybody gives up. Not giving up, ever, sounds inspiring. But I guess one should know when to give up. What if you're just wasting your time? Bleh, I don't know. Gibberish.

My mood fluctuates alot these days. Randomly.

I gotta study the Lower Limb today. Femural triangle, and all that. Lumber Plexus. Plexus. Plexus. Sounds like a computer company's name. Plexus.

I want to shop alot. I don't feel like shopping too often. But these days, i do. ALOT. I want to shop till i drop. Lame. Hahah. Whatev.

Whenever I go out, i look at the sky. Its kind of a habit of mine. Do you?