Friday, January 9, 2015

Days these days.

I have a good routine going on these days. Ugh, s2 is watching a show, and it's distracting me. So, i usually wake up around 12-1. Then breakfast, eggs and sausages. Then me and s2 basically don't do much all day. Which doesn't sound very fun, but the boredom is relaxing in a sickening kind of way. In the evening I spend time with my parents, and later me and s2 sit around the heater in our chairs like old people and talk. Sometimes when s2 goes out, i doze off in my chair. Its one of those old grandfather chairs. Sounds comfy, i know. Anyway, then there's dinner and Friends. After that, i go out for a walk. I love my daily walks. Frozen face, red nose. Sky. When i come inside, I shower with water that burns. Then green tea. The last thing i do is watch a movie with s2. Then I read one out the three things i'm reading. And fall asleep.

But too bad, I hardly have any time left at home. Oh well..

Monday, January 5, 2015

Dreams of sickly lions.

My left eye keeps twitching. My sisters are complaining about how cold it is, but i feel fine. They say i'm hyperthyroid. But I'm not. Yes, yes, 2015 is here. New year, etc. I had a great New year's night though. Spent time with family and friends. Sat around the fire all night, talked, played Taboo and Cranium and won both times. YES. Went for a nice breakfast around 9 and then crashed by 11. A.m.
Things have also been weirdly shitty. I have all this free time, but I haven't been in one place. Weddings and all the to and fro shit. Surprisingly, i didn't mind the weddings much. And i know why, but forget about that.
The other night, Nd got me a slice of my favorite coffee cake. I was ecstatic. It's one of those things.
I have a lot of plans for when i go back to the City. But. I don't know how much of that I'll actually be able to do. I don't know how it's going to be once i go back. Things are going to change, big time. The wheels are already in motion, and I don't know how it's all going to end up. But I..I have to be prepared. And i have to deal with it. Must keep my expectations low. And maybe everything won't be so bad.
Change is always scary. It's uncomfortable. But i think it's all a matter of time. What's going to happen is going to happen. Meh..
I know i'm being super vague, but that's the best i can do right now.
I've been reading a lot of non-fiction lately. Reading three things right now. One of them is proving to be a bit of a challenge for me. Maybe i should change my reading timings. Or sleeping habits. Because i have an oversleeping-induced headache most of the day and that makes it hard for me to focus on shit. I keep saying shit. Shit shit shit.
But i don't want to stop reading. Its important that I continue.
Umm. I feel like I should maybe talk more about the new year, but what's there to say? I don't think there's anything. Well, there is. But forget about that right now.

The key is, to change the way you think. The way you see..perceive.That's the key. Once you change that, change the thought, words will flow and actions will follow.

My eye is twitching again.
Oh btw. I watched taxi driver last night. About time right? Robert de niro looked good. But his teeth! It's like he's one person with his mouth closed but then he opens his mouth and he's someone else. Everything changes.