What in the world?!
So i just logged on here after ten billion years only because - well long story but oh my lord, i clicked on the 'comments' section and there were all these unread unseen comments from years ago that had not showed up on my dashboard for some reason and i thought my blog was dead and no one had read it in years and then i just read all 38 new comments and it warmed my heart so muchhhh. This has made my day! Some are from 2017! Damn. Some of you have been reading and leaving comments. Like little elves. How nice. How nice.
I am very happy. Its like the world has given me a nice little pat on the back. A nice little 'Keep going'.
And so i shall.
Anyhow.
Today is a Thursday. Around 2 pm. And im home. My hair is damp. Not straightened. I don't have make up on. Just sun screen. And moisturizer. The weather is such that we're not turning A.Cs on anymore. So its just the fan and an abundance of sunlight through the windows. That's mostly for the giant plant we have kept right next to the window. Alright so currently we have 3 plants.
One is giant. Its literally huge. All over the place. There's no order to the leaves. They're here and there. But ive grown to love its imperfection. The way its huge and clumsy. But me and A both agreed that we liked it here. And we like it as it is. He's the one who takes care of it mostly. Notices little baby leaves and such. But i like it too. And so the curtains are pushed back so he can breathe and bask. The second plant. Is the one i have a soft corner for. Someone at A's office gave it to him. And it has grown so much. It was tiny and its stem is so delicate. Yet it grows and grows. No attitude. Just quietly growing and getting stronger. I still worry when i see the thin stems sway when the fan is on. But it seems resilient. And i would like for it to not die. And the third plant. Is a cactus. That we purchased from this organic market thing that happened over the weekend. It doesn't need any pampering. Its prickly and its in a nice little artsy pot in the washroom where he lives quietly. What i like about it is that it can be used as a weapon. I can shove it in someone's face. I shared this idea with A and he wasn't very amused.
Enough about plants. Everyone has become a plant person during Covid right?
I think i haven't mentioned COVID in here. So. Well just for the sake of it, ill mention it cuz it is a huge thing happening globally and my blog needs to be relevant and in sync with the times. So yeah covid. Ok.
Which reminds me. I am working again. Its been 4 months now. Work is all-consuming. It eats up all my energy, all my time. I hardly get a day off. And when i do, i try to be a vegetable and re-cuperate and recharge before i get back to the grind. So what am i doing on a thursday afternoon writing this and that you might think? Well. I got sick. Stomach got really angry and really upset and there was fever and bodyaches and the whole package. So my hospital took pity on me and gave me 2 sick days. And i couldn't be happier. I slept and i slept. I watched netflix and netflix. A nice movie called the trial of the Chicago Seven and a weird documentary about three identical strangers and a shady unethical study. This morning however, I am watching Rebecca. Its one of those classics that I've heard about ever since i was little, i know the story i know the characters, i know the references enough so when i see a meme about it i understand it. But i've never actually read it. Not going to either. *shrugs* And this movie has Armie Hammer who plays a rich guy so well.
I woke up, i had an early breakfast. My stomach didn't reject it. Thankyouverymuch. Took a long long shower. Sorted out some clothes. Tidied up the room. Talked to mom. Wore jeans and a top. Going to change my nail colour in a while. And well. Theres this thing i should do now that i have the time. Sort out wedding pictures. Ugh. It gives me shudders to think of it. Wedding happened more than a year ago and i still haven't sorted out the wedding pictures for the album. And now im just too scared to attempt it. Maybe ill have tea and get done with it today. There are a number of tasks ive been running away from. Ill list them later. (procrastination 101).
I've been reading about the impact stress can have on your health and how unresolved, repressed emotions can present as physical symptoms. Autoimmune diseases. What not. It's fascinating. Also a little scary. Its like being stressed about being stressed. What can you do? Well, i try. I try to calm my brain down every chance i get. I try to do comforting things for my soul and my body. I'm not great at that. And the body part is severely neglected. That stresses me out even more. But i'm trying. Just keep swimming. Right?
More and more, i've grown to like the simplicity and the quietness of my life. I'm not doing much. I work. A works. We are happy in our routine. It's comfortable. There isn't a lot of clutter. Not too much noise. I love people not knowing whats going on in my life. Unless i decide to tell them about it. Not much is for show. And i want to keep it that way. I do however want a vacation. And a lot of fun. But other than that, the quiet is nice.
I will hopefully write in again soon. All these new(for me) comments! Going to ride this high for some time. Just you see.
Thanks for whoever (whomever? Why do i never know which one to use? someone settle this for me) read and wrote in. Its the best feeling. I'm glad people are still writing. Still reading. And not just on Insta (eye roll).
Till next time.
