My new years post.

Hi. Im in a hurry. I have to study. I really do. I want to do good in the bio test tomorrow. I actually know that chapter. The whole, translation stuff. I know it. Anyway. The funny thing is that. I've bee feeling so weird today. I felt as if i had had a jug of coffee or something, when i really hadn't. So what did i do? I thought i'd go have real coffee, which would kidna you know, trump the effect of the phantom coffee. Makes sense? To me it did. So now im on coffee. And im all in a hurry and weird. Im SO sensitive to caffiene. I think i spelled caffiene wrong. Lol. Whatever.
So, omG, gone. 2009 is gone. So fast, no? It just flew by. I hate the lame New years forwarded text messages. OmG, they suck right? They so do! Im just going to wish new years to some friends. Not all. Lol. Aaah. Please God, give me a nice new year. I didn't like 09 so much. Well, i mean. I learned things. I really did. But, i mean. I want a better year next time. Okay? Please. Thankyou. You're the best.
Okay. i don't feel the excitement btw. Of a new year that is. I mean. Today is Thursday, and tomorrow is Friday. So. I dont feel big. Like. OmG a big change is coming. No i don't feel that at all. But okay, ill just sit down at night and think about stuff. Im not going to make a new years resolution. I never take it seriously. So no. Its almost ten and ive got TONS of stuff to do. Recently, i've started taking everything more importantly than studies. I do everytihng, except study. I really should study you know. This is my year. haha MY year. Ooooh. Haha. Exciting. Its not my year. I mean. Every year is MY year cuz its MY life. Isn't it? Lol. Okay omG didn't i say i was in a hurry? I AM IN A HURRY OKAY? OMG OMG BIO. Btw how lame is this? Its the so called New years night or whatever and im bio-ing. =\ No its okay.
Okay. Bye. New years to everyone. Goodluck! =]

Tagged!

Today's the last day of 2009. Special day. Not really, but still. 2010 starts tomorrow. I thought i'd write a nice long post today. But i cant think of anything (as usual), so i'm going to do the tag thing that *Shreya* tagged me in. :D Its nice, and its long. SO, lalalaa, here goes:

1. What is your current obsession?
My new cellphone, 5730 Nokia. <3

2. What are you wearing today?
Eee, Grey socks, black Pjs, a pink shirt and a red shirt, and a grey sweater. =p

3. What’s for dinner/lunch?
Fried fish. Yum, but im not going to eat it, im having coffee instead.

4. What’s the last thing you bought?
My cellphone? But, i didn't pay for it, my dad did o.O So i don't think it counts. Erm, I bought a sweater for my friend recently!

5. What are you listening to right now?
Trading yesterday - Shattered. Sad song.

6. What do you think about the person who tagged you?
I love her blog, and she often comments on mine which i love too xD Yay!

7. If you could have a house totally paid for, fully furnished anywhere in the world, where would you like it to be?
I don't really know. =\ Really.

8. What are your must-have pieces for summer?
I dont have any must have pieces for summer =p

9. If you could go anywhere in the world for the next hour, where would you go?
Paris. =]

10. Which language do you want to learn?
Arabic, Spanish.

11. What’s your favourite quote?
I like quotations. =p Erm, i can think of two right now that i love.
"What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger" - Friedrich Nietzsche
"To begin, begin" - Wordsworth.
Awesomeness.

12. Who do you want to meet right now?
My friends. Z, H, Sd, and M. Right now =[ !

13. What is your favourite colour?
Grey. Black. I like pink in combo with them too.

14. Give us 3 styling tips that work for you.
- I dont put too much stuff on my face and that works for me. And thats about it =p

15. What is your dream job?
Weeee. For a couple of years, i want to stupid job with alot of research, paper work and crazy hours. When i get that out of my system, i want to start social work. All kinds of it. Visit places, and give burgers to little children and teach them stuff and make houses for cute old people. Aww. Yeah, all that please.

16. What’s your favorite magazine?
I dont read magazines. =\

17. If you had $100 now, what would you spend it on?
I'd get presents for all the people i owe them to =p
[s1, don't you give me that stupid look! x[ ]

18. What do you consider a fashion faux pas?
A tiara, unless you're a princess. [disturbing image of girl at college welcome party comes to mind =s]

19. Who according to you is the most over-rated style icon?
Bluekh. I cant think of.

20. What kind of haircut do you prefer?
Sharp pointy ones :D

21. What are you going to do after this?
Study =\ *puke puke*

22. What are your favourite movies?
How do i answer this one? =\ Erm okay ill copy paste some from my facebook profile info thingy so you get the idea. =p 'Lotr, Pirates of the Caribbean 123, The Illusionist, the prestige, 300, Sweeney Todd, Gladiator, Speak, Into the wild, Blood diamond, the schindlers list, Gone with the wind, a beautiful mind, Titanic' etc etc. Oh, and freaky friday, cuz it has so many memories. Aww .

23. What inspires you?
Everything. Seriously. Seriously. No kidding. I just look around, and thats all it takes. Seriously. Im easily inspired =p

24. What do your friends call you most commonly?
By by name. I hate nicknames =p

25. Would you prefer coffee or tea?
Coffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffeecoffee. *slurp*

26. What do you do when you are feeling low or terribly depressed?
Aaarrmm, erm , umm. Depends on the level of depress-ness. I listen to songs, text Wh, roam around, sleep, and have random convo's with God. <3

27. What makes you go wild?
Coffee. Totally.

28. Which other blogs do you love visiting?
Oo, i love reading random blogs. The ones im following, i love love!

29. Favorite Dessert/Sweet?
No favourite. But im craving for a freaking cheesecake since a month now :@ and OMG i want it! >.<

30. How many tabs are turned on in ur browser right now?
Facebook, Blogger: Dashboard =p, Listverse, google. --> that about all there is to my life. Pff. =\

31. Favorite Season?
Winter :D OMG.

32. If I come to your house now, what would u cook for me?
I won't. We'll order in. Okay? =]

33. What is the right way to avoid people who purposefully hurt you?
Ignore them, avoid them, and be secretly amused at how much it pisses them off. =]

34. What are you afraid of the most?
Cockroaches, loss, change.

35. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
I dont remember. =\ Probably something about my hair. Shallow much? No. Whatev.

36. What brings a smile on your face instantly?
Oo, all sorts of things. Random things. Teetee (my baby cousin), new stationery, my parents being cute, tasty food, rain, compliments, observing people.

37. A word that you say a lot?
there are soo many. - Omg, totally, lame, whatev, just, argh.


- Tadaaa. Im done. Blah. Whatever. People, do read it and comment. I love comments. I do. =>


P.s. I tag EVERYONE. Seriously!

so cold.

Hi. I'm freezing. It was SO cold in college today. Cruel, almost. Im home now and under thick layers of blanket but it ain't really helping. Aaa, my feet are numb. Anyway. Im going to sleep now. Got a test tomorrow..again. Grrr. Ok ok whatev. Ta.
More updates later.

Back home.

Im back home. After 4 days of fun. Its still fun though. Me, s1 and s2 watched movies yesterday. We watched ‘Knowing’ last night. Bleh. Going to watch ‘Face off’ today. Yes, i haven’t seen it yet. But im going to. So, good.

I was thinking last night how big and random the world is. I mean. Right now. Im sitting, and i can’t find my socks. In some other part of the world, someones getting married. Some cheetah is tearing up a zebra. Someone just got hit by a car and is lying on the road bleeding. Someone got a surprise present. Somebody took his\her last breath, and somebody else took his\her first! =\ And i’m sitting here, thinking where the hell did my socks go? Random. I love it how we’re so little. All about little things. Little-ness. Cute word, little. Little little little little. Looks weird now. Little. Lol. Blah.

Sometimes i hate my blog. I love it but i also hate it many times. Because, it has no flow. I write random crap off and on. Nothing that really makes sense. Nothing meaningful either. I don’t write. As in write write. I’d like to write sometime. Really.

S1 said i really need some anger management. Me! Seriously. Behavioral changes. Ooo. But i guess thats interesting. Lettuce see. S2’s going to visit an old friend today. I slept so much. Its really really cold. And one sleeps more when its really really cold. The world is so weird. People are so random. I like that. But people are so weird. Pfff. I hate the drama though.

Ok enough of the randomness. Whatever, you know. I love daydreaming. So what?

red and black awesomeness.

So. My new cellphone is finally here. In my hands. My life is complete. I love it. Its my wittle babie. I'm going to be so careful with it. Babie-ness. Now that i finally have a phone with wifi, i'm going to blog more often about lame stuff. Right from here. Yes yes. Aww. I love it. Anyway, this post is supposed to be short. So, whatever. I'm having fun here. Feels good to be far away from the miserable deadness and collegeness. I think i'm good at pictionary. Not awesome (yet) but good. Lol. Going to watch new moon today on the insistence of s1 and s2. Ive already seen it in a cra-

(something went so wrong with blogger, that i couldn't continue that yesterday). Anyway. Now that i'm up, and have nothing more interesting than packing to do, i thought i'd complete this. Well, im sad that im going home already. I.Dont.Want. Awww, i had so much fun these last two days. Im happy. Yet sad. Im a sad little angry person nowadays. I don't like this person. Old me, come back!

Bah, ill write in more crap later. Right now, im going to fill up my cellphone with lots of nicey stuff for the billion hour journey back home. (totally exaggerating, with the billion hour thing). So. Whatever.
Ta.

To yay or not to yay.

Going to lahore tomorrow! Yay. Getting my new cellphone tomorrow. Yay. Holidays start from tomorrow. Yay. Physics test tomorrow. No yay. Angry at college. No yay. Yummy 7 layered paratha. Double Yay. Going to sleep soon. Yay. Having to bring my blanket from the other room. No yay. Got nothing to write. No yay. Staring at my monitor with an angry head. No yay. God. YAY.

i cant think of a title. please.

Why is it that i’m soo angry nowadays. Grrrrr! I am. Is it okay if i hate everything and everyone? Is it? Does that mean i’m evil. No it doesn’t. Pff. Im a crazy taxi. Beep beep!

Well, i wore my pink and grey shoe\socks thingies today. Well. The truth is, i took its pictures but no matter what i did, they just won’t look pretty =\ They look like weird big gigantic whatevs. S1 said they look like tanks. Tanks? Sad. Anyway. Check out the pics.

 

 

 

 

Urgh.. I want to write there in that space above ^^. To the right of the pics. But somehow i can’t. Hmph. Now it all looks so irregular. Blekh. Anyway. Naa naaa. nanana. I enjoyed doing salt analysis in chem lab today. The salt turned out to be Cadmium Nitrate. It was fun. I miss my novel. I miss Marian Halcombe’s diaries. =\ . I want to start another novel but then i won’t be able to put it down. And i don’t want that to happen. =[ My exams are next month. OmG tests starting again from monday. Unfair! UNFAIR! :S Pelaze, no!

Interesting discovery:  Turritopsis nutricula is a kind of jellyfish that is biologically immortal. Awesome? I know.

I like the term ‘viral marketing’ . =] Dont you?

I have ten followers now. YAY. *teary happy parent smile* for bloggy.

Ze End.

I finished my NOVEL! Finally! Yay!
I like happy endings. I get annoyed when i don't get one.
571 pages. 15 days. Good?
Book's called 'The Woman in White' by Wilkie Collins.
Nice.
I borrowed it from my college library. 
It was last issued in '99.
I came to its rescue ten years later.
Im awesome? Yes.
I took its pictures.
I can get on with my life now.

  

I want to write something here just to fill this space up. =] What should i write? Long college work to do. Its 12.01 am and i’ll start now. Okay? Okay!

Dentist, nail polish, dreams.

I dont hate my dentist so much today. She was nice. And she gave me hope about taking off my godforsaken braces soon. Yay. A little more than a month now i think. Or maybe two months? Well, i could wait that long. Its okay. Aww. Anyway. After the dentists, S1 took me to shopping. She had to get some things. Somethings = make up stuff. As in. Nail polish and an anti-frizz whatever. Well, we went there and she tried lots of nail polish samples on her Nail. And then she didn’t want to mess up her nails so she tried two colours on my nails which was so sweet of her. *Smiles sweetly yet sarcastically*. After choosing the colours, she asked me a gazillion times if she had chosen the right ones. And then a gazillion times more. Multiplied by a weird-zillian raised to the power of some more zillions. =\ (Okay thats lame and doesn’t make sense). Anyway. I myself, just bought some junk food. Nimco and all. Came back home.

Im cold. Heehee.

I have college work to do. Oh. I have something interesting to tell. Well. Yesterday i had two dreams. One was about college closing for winter vacations and muharram holidays etc. In the other one, i had a surprise-ish birthday. Okay. Today i had two dreams too. Both were about the same things too. College and surprise birthday. It was just that the setting was different. And some other things. o.O I think its interesting. Isn’t it? Bluekh.

Coffee and Novel are waiting fo meh. ^.^ (and homework :S).

I downloaded Public Enemies. Lalallaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Dont.want.blog.ness.

I don’t feel like blogging at all. So i am going to write about not wanting to write anything. I don’t want to write about anything. Its because i don’t have anything to write about. I mean,i do. But i don’t want to write it all out here. =\ Ill just try writing randomness.

So, alright. Erm. What happened today. Well i woke up, took a shower, went to college early. Accidentally hit a bicycle guy while getting out of the car. =\ Frowned. Entered college. Blah blah. Blah some more. Got off ten minutes early. Read my novel in the car. Got home. Had food. Slept. Slept some more. Had weird dreams. Woke up. Slept some more. Woke up again. Skyped with Cat. Went down. Sat with parents, talked. Talked some more. Laughed. Laughed some more. Convinced mom to go to Pindi on Thursday to meet Nano, and bring my cellphone on the way back. OMG. NEWNESS. OMG. Ok. Had food again. Had fish. Got full upto my throat. Opened blog to find no new comments. Got disappointed. Decided to blog some more.

I don’t feel like typing. God, i seriously don’t. Dads calling. Lets see what he has to say….

… Oh. He asked me to make him coffee. Okay. 

x# –> Its a smiley.

Im pissed and grumpy again. Im on a roll. Anyway. I slept with two pairs of socks and it got so uncomfortably warm that i woke up soon after. And i woke up annoyed. And i hate the heater. It fits so well in the whole with-or-without-you situation. Its complicating my life. I hate people. They’re all just silly excuses. And i hate excuses, which means i hate people. All of them. And then, my scar won’t go away, it loves me so. I don’t love it. I don’t mind it really but sometimes i really do. Whatever. Don’t you piss me off. The only thing i love is the soft awesomeness of the pages of the novel i’m reading. Aaah. Its a delight turning every page. Believe. You. Me. I hate blogging about random stuff. Yes.No.Yes.No.Yes.No.

Its 12.02. Which reminds me of New Years. 2010.1010101001. eakdjasdjkasdlkas.  

more socks.

I have a headache. Over sleeping. Anyway. I took a pic of these socks/shoes whatever. Ugly christmas colours. But whtever. They’re warm. I like. I have pink and grey ones too. Ill upload them later.

More blogness later, when i feel like it. I don’t feel like it right now.

No.

No blog for today. Go away.

Had had had had.

 

So today was pathetic. Well the day ended good, but whatever. Alls not well that ends well. Well, not always. But whatever. Argh. Anyway. So i don’t have much to write here today, so i’ll just share something that i found interesting.

Okay so i found it on Listverse, which, i repeat is a website i love. Its awesome. So anyway. I found out that the following sentence:

“James while John had had had had had had had had had had had a better effect on the teacher”

- is a completely legitimate English sentence. I tried to figure it out, but for the life of me i couldn’t! All i see after reading it, are a billion pointless ‘had’s  that don’t make any sense. =\ But ofcourse they do. I haven’t wikipedia-ed or googled it yet. I don’t want to. So if anyone can figure it out, do explain. : D

Okay, so thats that.

Yay. Happy thinking!

Rain!

Today. Is/was a pretty day. Beautiful pretty amazingness. I mean, today is exactly the reason why i love winters. I mean, theres this kind of cold. The biting cold. That bites you and doesn’t let you sit still for a moment. I love it. I love the shivering and the teeth  chattering non stop. I love the icy icy freezing wind on my face in the morning. Aah i love it all. It was that kind of cold today. And to top it all off, it rained. OmG it actually did, and i was waiting and wanting for it to rain since so looong now. And it was SO beautiful. It was raining and it was freezing cold. And i mean, the roads got all wet. And then there was this autumn-y feeling to everything with the yellow pointy autumn leaves falling off half-yellow autumn trees everywhere. Aaah. I love it. I LOVE IT! Yeah, i love it too much. I mean, who says winters are sad and dull and depressing? Thats like the wrong-est thing ever. Winter, for me is such a feel good season. Like, if i’m having a bad day, hating everyone and everything and pissed/annoyed/frustrated out of my mind etc etc, and it starts to rain, ill suddenly be all peaceful and content, and at the end of the day ill say, well, you know,today was a good day. Bling!

I wish i had taken a picture though. Really =[ . But its okay. [not]. But whatever. I’ll just put up another google one, which i love. Pff.

The wanting, knowing, walnuts, etc.

I want to know everything. And by everything, i really do mean, everything. I want to be like, yeah, a know-it-all. LOL. Eeek, yeah actually i do. I want to know all about whats going on in the world. Whose doing what. Who did what. When. Where. Why. All the ‘W’s. I want to know all the history there is. And all the geography. Maps, names, dates, places. All of it. I can’t really make opinions about things until i know everything there is to it you know, all sides of it. I literally want to put my head in thick dusty books and read through them. I love books. Libraries. Google. All that.

I also wish my memory was better. Cuz well even when i read about stuff, i forget it soon afterwards. My brain leaks. Annoying aint it? I wish my brain were a sponge. So that it’d absorb and retain everything. And at the same time, i’d also be able to squeeze out all the useless info. But then, *scratches head* , i’d have to put my hand in my head.. and.. ew thats just retarded. =s

Anyway. I wonder how Mr Kim Peek feels like. Cute Mr.Kim Peek. Sharp pointy name btw. No i don’t want to be a savant. =\ No. Thats not ideal. Hmm. Maybe if i’d just eat more almonds you know. Oh and walnuts too. Walnuts btw are called the Brain food. Cuz first, it resembles the brain, in appearance, and secondly, is good for the brain. How genius is that? Lol. Cute. But walnuts are like, bitter, often. And oh, God knows how much i hate it when they put walnuts in ice creams or cookies. [reminds me of the walnut-y cookie s1 made me eat. bluekh].

ARGH. Panic attack. Last of the evil ‘grand’ tests tomorrow. Everythings left. Gotta hurry. Toodles.

Socks. Yum.

Mom brought a new pair of socks yesterday. I <3 them. They’re cute. With bunnies on it. Here, i took a pic. My webcam takes ugly pictures btw. 

Aww such cuteness.

Coffee and yeats and keane.

Coffee makes me bite my nails. I just realized it. Anyway. Im in love with ‘A bad dream’ by Keane. The live version more, i guess. I read somewhere that the lyrics were inspired or whatever from a poem of Yeats’s. So i read the poem. And i loved that too. So im gonna post it here. It has a feeling to it. That i like.

An Irish Airman Foresees His Death

by W. B. Yeats

I know that I shall meet my fate   
Somewhere among the clouds above;   
Those that I fight I do not hate   
Those that I guard I do not love;   
My country is Kiltartan Cross,
My countrymen Kiltartan’s poor,   
No likely end could bring them loss   
Or leave them happier than before.   
Nor law, nor duty bade me fight,   
Nor public man, nor cheering crowds,
A lonely impulse of delight   
Drove to this tumult in the clouds;   
I balanced all, brought all to mind,   
The years to come seemed waste of breath,   
A waste of breath the years behind
In balance with this life, this death.

Awesomness..

I think i’m awesome. I just realized, that i feel so many things at one time. All the time. Like, right now? I feel happy, peaceful, angry, content, sad, impatient, and hyper.

Agree with me. Quick.

Its the coffee.

I only use clutch pencils. I use normal pencils too once in a while. But i can’'t live without a clutch pencil. My green one got lost long ago. I replaced it with the black one. That got lost too. Then i bought a pink one. That was just lousy. It broke. Then s2 gave me her blue one. Then i lost that too. *<\3* I loved that one. Now i bought another blue one. I love it. I adore it. :D

=\ . Its the coffee. My heads all like Buzzzzzzzzz. zzzzz. zzzzz. Buzzzzzz. Its the coffee. My hands are freezing, i havent turned the heater on, cuz it makes me sleepy and weird.

I feel a little weird. Anxiety. =\ Im not worried for the test tomorrow. But still. Anyway. Ill keep on writing today. Bling bling bling.

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Okay i have more to write. Im on the first chapter. *omG =\* .. And im dying to get it done with. After that, ill call and wake up my friend Sd, who must be sleeping. Shes always sleeping, specially when we have a test tomorrow. Grr.

*forget about your house of cardss, and illl deal mineee* . Yay, to X for the song. =D .

Btw, i was reading other people’s blogs today. They kinda write about sensible stuff you know. About things. and Like, stuff. Mine is just like. Its not even a blog. Its like a page out of my rough notebook, where i write crap during physics class. Really. It is. Hm.. But the question is, Do. I. Care?

Pff. No.

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The thiing about coffee is. It gives me bad headaches. =\ Like, right now. Im so sensitive to caffiene. Teehehehehe.

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Aaah i feel good. I called Sd. I love it when we go nuts and laugh before tests. Its always fun.

Lyrics.

 

“Excuse me, too busy, oh writing your tragedy
These mishaps you bubble wrap
When you've no idea what you're like..
So let go, jump in
Oh well, whatcha waiting for?
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown.
So let go, just get in
Oh, it's so amazing here
It's alright
'Cause there's beauty in the breakdown”

- Let go – Frou frou.

the grandness.

Freaking ‘Grand’ test tomorrow. What kind of test is called a ‘GRAND’ test. Its just stupid. Its a stupid idea to scare people into studying for it. But not me. I won’t. Its physicks tomorrow, and i have to do four long chapters. They all have a billion formulae that look very much like each other. I can’t learn them. I can’t sit and carefully read all four chapters in one day. Rather, make it half a day. Cuz yeah, i slept after college. Im human. I need sleep! I skipped tuition to study for this stupid test. Stupid test. Stupid. And oh yeah pointless. Its pointless cuz we’re gonna have the detention exams in January anyway. So whats the point of taking big ‘grand’ tests a month earlier? I dont get it. Oh and to make things better, its gonna be in the hall. Not my classroom, where copying answers from people is much easier. IN the hall. Hmph! Oh, and how can we prepare it in one day, we ask. And they say, ‘what were the eid holidays for’. Really. I mean. Yeah. Eid holidays. Sure why not. =]

How angry i am. Im really angry. I dont like the world. Actually i do. But it just sucks so much at times. What the heck, i mean. GRAND test. What the heck. Im really sleepy alright? I’m not gonna go and make coffee for myself and force myself to stay awake for four more hours, without actually studying anything. omG i get really angry nowadays. Im SO not an angry person normally.  But nowadays, i am.

I need fresh air. I feel like ripping stuff apart. Oh yeah, i do. Not really. But that expression sounds appropriate. I want college to end already!

Bizarre.

So i found this on Listverse that has been my favourite website since some time now. There’s a list there about ‘15 truly bizarre creatures’ It’s so odd, bizarre, and amazing. Here:

Barreleye Fish:

Although this fish’s existence has been known for quite some time, it was only this year that scientists fully understood how bizarre it is. These fish have a mostly black body with a transparent head (which was unheard of until recently, since it always shattered while the fish was being brought up to the surface). Although it has two indentions in the front of its head, those are NOT its eyes: its eyes are the green spheres in its transparent head. These eyes can be used to look above for food or look forward when it is stalking its prey.

x[

I dont want the eidness to end. No i dont! I dont want college, and boring dead stale routine again. I don’t want big weird ‘grand’ tests, as they call them, to happen. I dont want to study, i don’t want to be bored. I dont want people texting me on the second day of eid asking ‘hw much phy ve u d0ne???’ . I don’t want to reply to their texts. I don’t want to eat yellow shitty sauce again. I don’t want to practice drawing perfect circles in physics class. Or cubes. I don’t like. I dont want. =[

Im cross. x[

mehendi.eid.

cant type much. mehendi on one hand. ill upload its pic later. and iys dark here. s2 is sleeping. Eid mubarak to everyone. shhh.

laters.

oh btw. no ones online on msn right now. cmon its eid! it either means that i dont have a life, or that other ppl do have a life. either way, its just sad! >.<

going to pindi tomorow though. FUN.

[Here, i uploaded this later. 7 35 pm, 30th. S1 put it for me btw]

There, and back again.

Yeah so I'm really psycho, when it comes to all my ‘moment saving’ thing. I don't like forgetting happy times. I don’t like it that something really awesome happens one day, and a year later, you don’t even remember half of it. I like remembering things and keeping a record of things. That's one of the reasons i write this blog too. I like going down my sweet (or not so sweet) memory lane and look at everything once again.

So, i take pictures. Yeah, thats what i do. I take pictures of everything. I take a lot of pictures. All the time. Well, at least i try to. And then i upload them to my super secret photo bucket account where they sit safe and sweet. I often look at old pictures and feel super nostalgic, and thats not a feeling i like to feel often. But its still worth it.Yeah well I told you, i’m just a little psycho about this.

I very often, just want to go back and re live moments. Very often. Aaah. I love memories. I can go on and on about memories now. But i don’t really feel like writing about it. Whatev.

I love and i miss ! And thats happy and sad too. Both. Its just pretty.

P.s. The title doesn’t really look appropriate up there but it does kinda go with what im trying to talk about here, right? Yeah.

bluekh.

I hate ufone ads. I hate them with a passion. I can’t tolerate them. They’re corny, and lame and weird. They piss me off. They cross the highest degrees of lameness and cheapness. They are a tragedy and they make me cringe.

I know people who like ufone ads. They ‘love’ ufone ads. I don’t get that. I really don’t. =[

My dad hates ufone ads too.

I hate ufone itself. I hate it so much that i didn’t even use a capital ‘U’ for ufone.

Here’s a sample for everyone to enjoy. Start watching at 0:25 ..

51th post.

 

I have a headache. I feel impatient and hasty. Very. I also feel exhausted and feverish. Again. I even checked my temperature. But well ofcourse. It said 96.4. :) Yeah. Ninety six. I mean. Seriously?? Thats not even close to normal. Not 98, not 97, but 9-freakin-6. =)

Pff. Anyway,
I had a get together with friends today. Amazing fun. But can't write much about that here atm, cuz i am exhausted. Totally. Everything aches.
I.want.bed.
Oh, and i was looking nice today. Such happyness. ^.^
Im wearing teddy bear socks today that my friend brought from England (=p pff) . Ugly, but adorable. Here, ive attached a pic.

Enjoy.

Some more pointless junk.

So there’s absolutely nothing for me to do right now except sit here and think about all kinds of random things to keep my brain busy. But my brains always busy. Whether i want it to be that way or not. It just is. Anyway. Thats not the point. The point is.. well, i don’t know what the point is. I guess thats the point then. That there is no point. Hmm. Anyway.

Im reading Emma nowadays. I like it. Emma, the main character, is weird. She’s totally spoiled Harriet, who i think is so dumb that i want to kill her. I like Mr.Knightly. He makes se – wth? there’s a teeny insect on my keyboard. SHOO! .. Anyway. Yeah so i was saying that he makes sense. Emma kinda annoys me. But lets see. Oh and did i mention Jane Austen spells the word ‘choose’ as ‘chuse’ ? Haha. I think its nice. We should be allowed to do that more often.

The neighbours are listening to pushto songs. Loud ones. Hmm. Chemistry practical tomorrow at college. Not looking forward to it. s2 ain’t replying to my text. She’s busy studying thats why. She has her physio proff tomorrow. Man. Im totally out of things to say, or write. Soon i’m going to cuddle up in that cozy brown quilt and just before dozing off, all kinds of random ideas would flood my brain. And thats pretty annoying cuz i can’t do anything abuot them at that time. Im hating what im writing atm. Its SO pointless. Why am i being pointless lately? As in, SO pointless? With no point, whatsoever. Maybe i should name my blog that. ‘pointless junk’. Yes.

Hmph.

Pointless junk.

So i wrote in my super secret blog today after long. I was so cheap back then. in 2005. I was 13 wasn't it? Am i excused? Yes i am. I forgive myself for being that person. That stupid wannabee person who wanted to be cool. Funny almost.
Anyway, another blast today. Quite near. Infront of PC. Didn't hear it. Must not be that high power or whatever you'd call it. I was sleeping at that time anyway. And why was i sleeping? I was sleeping, cuz i wasn't in college. I was here, lying in this bed, all sick and sick. You know what i think? I think it was the yellow sauce. I shouldn't even call it sauce. Its only a sorry shitty excuse for real sauce. Its that thing the canteen people spill generously over the weird black fries. That i eat, everyday at college. Ah, so well yeah, maybe some of it is my fault. But it's also my friend Sd's fault. She just told me not to look at it too much, and just eat and enjoy. And that i did. Only to suffer the painful consequences later. I don't know whats up with my system. My neck and shoulders and head hurts! Stomachs better though. Whatev. Gotta call my mom to ask about what tablet to eat, but she wont reply to my text. Or call. Whatev. ARGH.
The net stopped working again. Its just crappy. Real crappy. I'll go to tuition today. After long. Ill go so that i can get myself out of this bed. Must.breathe.fresh.air.
Must!
Aaah, im excited for the new wintery clothes that Bhatti's gonna make for me. Bhatti being who? My Lahore waala darzi ofcourse. OmG my hands are freezing. My nose is pretty cold too. Lol.
I better go now. Ill write more later. Yes i will. Cuz theres nothing else i can think of doing. =]
Yep, thats my life. Nowadays.
Whatev.

Oh and im not gonna read what ive written, for the second time to check if ive made any mistakes of some sort. So.. bear with it.

Home alone and boredom.

Yes, please view the enlarged image. Thankyou.

Of Joy and Sorrow.

By Khalil Jibran:

Your joy is your sorrow unmasked.
And the selfsame well from which your laughter rises was oftentimes filled with your tears.
And how else can it be?
The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.
Is not the cup that holds your wine the very cup that was burned in the potter's oven?
And is not the lute that soothes your spirit, the very wood that was hollowed with knives?
When you are joyous, look deep into your heart and you shall find it is only that which has given you sorrow that is giving you joy.
When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.
Some of you say, "Joy is greater than sorrow," and others say, "Nay, sorrow is the greater."
But I say unto you, they are inseparable.
Together they come, and when one sits, alone with you at your board, remember that the other is asleep upon your bed.
Verily you are suspended like scales between your sorrow and your joy.
Only when you are empty are you at standstill and balanced.
When the treasure-keeper lifts you to weigh his gold and his silver, needs must your joy or your sorrow rise or fall.

-Brilliant isn’t it?

Of moscheetos and other things. =p

My hands are freezing and the moscheetos won’t stop biting.  Mortein refuses to help and drowning myself in annoyingly-sweet-smelling Mospel didn’t do me any good either. The moscheetos continue to harass me. The baby moscheeto on the right looks so adorable btw. I wonder why i chose this image. %-) Anyway!

Talking about winters, i just remembered. Being in kindergarten, we had this speech competition at school. Everyone was given a topic, according to which we had to dress too. There was a tree, rainbow, lunchbox (pfff!), egg, toothpaste, and a moscheeto. =\ . I, on the other hand was ‘Winter’. =] Grandness. I was winters, and i was dressed up in this long grey coat. My mom had sewn little cotton balls on it, that looked like snow. I was wearing a matching grey woolen cap. With the same cotton balls. I gave my cute little dumb speech and stood Third. The toothpaste won, followed by the Red Riding Hood i guess. Anyway. I still have that picture hanging on the living room wall. Me as Winter. =]

Hmm. By the way, its 3 a.m. I don’t like the feeling of waking up at 4pm, all drowsy and weird. I hate the feeling of waking up in the middle of the day. Like half the day has gone by, and everyone’s getting on with their day as usual *OMG I JUST REMEMBERED A DREAM I HAD TODAY =\* and ive just started. Like im late. Or something. Anyway. The dream. Well, i think i’ll write about that later. I don’t want to darken the mood over here now. :p .

So, im done.

Ta.

Winters, and other things.

I love walking on the terrace at night. Its cold. Its refreshing. Its peaceful and quiet. Its amazing. I love winters for all its amazingness. I am in love with life. I’m sooo lucky.

I get to sleep warm in my bed. I get to drink hot coffee. And  to eat those round cookies-with-sweet-sticky-red-thing-on-top anytime i want. I get to wear matching shoes everyday to tuition and choose what pen i want to write with each day. I get to sit at night with my parents and watch my dad watch the news. And spend time with my sisters, together stalking people on facebook. I get to be upset when the waters not hot in the shower! I get to make choices, little ones and big ones too. I get to make mistakes, big ones and stupid ones.

I get to choose.

For all this, and so much more, i can’t feel thankful enough. =]

Change.

Change. Its all around us. It won’t stop. It won’t wait. It happens. It turns your world upside down. You can’t run away from it. You can hide, but you can’t hide for ever.I read this somewhere and am going to share it :

“Everything in life is connected somehow. You may have to dig deep to find it but its there. Everything is the same even though its different. Somehow everything connects back with your life. The faces in certain places may be different, but the situation is the same. Irony is a hidden factor that creeps around us in life, letting its presence felt only after it has left.Everything connects together to form the balance of life, to maintain structure. Change is and always will be inevitable, but everything is relative, and all the moments and times in your life will come back around again, you just might find yourself on the other side of the coin. Things are always changing, as fast as everything stays the same.”

If there’s one big constant in this world, thats Change. Change - scares the hell outta me. But..what the heck. Lifes no fun without it. 

Joy.

 
Sometimes, very rarely, you feel pure joy. Pure happy.
I feel that now.
Why? Result! Big deal for me. Shutup.
People around me are happy too. So thats awesome.
omG I love God! =D
<3
475.
Moment saved.

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I thought maybe if i’d use the Windows Live Writer, i’d feel like writing more.

Im having kheer, its really tasty, and not super sweet, which is just the way i like it.

Youtube is awesome. It is life. So is google and facebook. And msn. And mininova. And Msn Today.

Im using my old cellphone since some weeks now, and i broke its cover thing, the one that surrounds the screen. Whatever. But i’ve mended it with a scotchtape.

My dad wants to play Ono with us again some day. I know.

I bought a box of ballpoints, a box of pencils, 3 black pointers, 3 ball points, 2 red pointers, 4 sharpners (3 silver, one pink), 4 rulers (one longer, 3 short), 2 clutch pencils (i didn’t buy them, s2 and s1 each gave me one after accidentally buying a whole packet of them :p). I didn’t buy a rubber. Ive got lots of new ones.

I <3 Valkyrie and Angels and Demons. Some movies are so funny. Like the Samoan Wedding. ( wink wink at s1 ).

I came across this new effect on this stupid (but nice) online photo editor and now everyone wants me to edit their picture that way. (wink wink at s1)

My scar reminds me of my operation. My operation was a nice experience (except the pain), there was lots of love flying around. And chocolates. (Operation operation operation. Enough of that already.)

I had an aloo paratha in the morning and im gonna eat Kryzo in a while. I likes Kryzo. Kryzo is cheap. I like new Snackers too. Traingles.

Awesome. Im so quick. Bubye.

Stupidness of the Stupid.

The iphone is stupid and it is being its stupid self. Its not my iphone (ofc), it is S2's iphone. But it is stupid. Its stupid i-tunes-ness and no-bluetooth-ness is really pissing me off. It has eaten my operation pictures and theres no way i can transfer them to my pc because of some stupid itune issue. I Need those pictures! Im updating the stupid itunes software, and its around some 85 mb or something. How stupid is that?
Now who wants to eat wafers?! Raise your hand.

P.s. No offense intended to the iphone owning population.

The flood :p

Asalamualaikum.

Hahahha. Imagine waking up in the morning (or the afternoon) and realizing that your room is flooded with water which is now almost a cm deep. Imagine.
It was fun, and shocking. =)
I dont feel like writing at all. Crap.

Untitled.

Asalamualaikum.
Hi everyone. I dont feel like writing in here at all :p . Such a pity. The only time i feel like writing something, is when im in the car, or just about to doze off, or some place far far away from this PC. And so. OUCH. Yeah okay nothing. What should i write about? Plenty of things i got. But i dont wannaa! Laziness taking over.
Pfff.

Ta.

The needle in the neck.

Asalamualaikum!

Im alive. I survived through it YAY :D . Well, yes im happy as a bird because that scary needle-in-the-neck test is done with. Phew.Well, so here's the story..
I woke up at 8 30 a.m. Got dressed, went to the hospital with mom. First i had an ultrasound of the neck region, but i hated the doc that did it. He looked quite arrogant. Actually i think he was so. Anyway, we got the Ultrasound reports and headed to the FNAC test place. But! The doc here was sooo nice. He was cute. My mom told him that i was scared of this test, having no anaesthesia and all =p . He told me that it was going to be fine, and he explained to me exactly what he was gonna do. He even described the needle with which he was gonna do it. So i felt kinda better. Then he gave me some instructions.. 1) Dont move even an inch while im injecting the needle. 2) Sit as straight as you can. 3) Keep your neck relaxed. 4)If you feel pain, which you wont, dont grab my hand.
Well, even if i would've felt pain, im not so idiotic to grab the hand with which he was holding the injection -__- , but i guess some crazy patient must have done that at one time, thus the warning :p. Anyway, my mom stood by me, and held my head a little. And bling! The needle was in. Ouch. It hurt. But it was okay. I didn't think about the pain. I was just thinking, be still be still be still. And then the needle was out. Ouch. Then they put a piece of cotton on it. Then they put a bandage on it. And my reports will be here at 1 pm. Okay i just told the whole story.
Now that im home, it does hurt a little, its kinda uncomfortable, but not really. Its okay. Im so brave. =p . My mom told my dad that i was a very fine patient. Ha! How awesome am i?

Anyway, yay. Its over. I hope they decide against the operation and my life can return back to normal soon. Poof. Im gonna sleep now.
Ta.

Blah.

Asalamualaikum..

So today is a special day, cuz today is the day i got my first make-up accesories :p LOL yes, i did. But for some reason, i dont feel like discussing it. Maybe sometime later. Im freaked out, cuz tomorrow morning some doctor is gonna stick a needle into my neck. Its terrifying.
I hope i survive :p .
S1 says turkeys are ugly.

Ta. Laters.

p.s. I really HATE giving titles to every post of mine. -___-

Bored.

Asalaamualaikum.


Well. I just ate so many peanuts. Anyway, today was a typical boring day. Dead. Not really, but close to it. Could've been worse, but anyway. I played Ono with S1 and Dad, and Dad won =/ ! As in, the deal was that anyone who'd win the game 3 times would win and he did. I had won just 1 :p and S1 had won 2 . Hmph. I didn't get any wild cards, while they both did. So, unfair okay? Whatever.
I cant wait to go to pindi again. Weeeee! Mom said, after the operation, all ill be eating is Ice creams, and cold shakes and everything cold. Eee. She also said that its a tiny operation and stuff, but then she goes on and asks me scary questions like how much do you think is your threshhold for pain? and im like :o , i dont know. Well, i dont mind cuts, and scratches, and all that stuff, but cant really say. :o
Im bored. I have exchanged my cellphone with S1's.
Nowadays, i video chat with S2 everyday =p . Its fun. My mom was very happy to see S2 on the screen that day. Cute, lol.
Okay, enough for now. Im bored. Grr.
HOLIDAYS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE FUN RIGHT? :@
Ta.

More about the Me =p

As of Now

I am listening to:	London - Blood Diamond Sountrack
Maybe I should:	Get a life, and get off facebook.
I love:	Mr.Cuddles and Mr.Hubble.
I have lost my respect for:	Sir Anjum :p LOL.
I will always be:	awesome.
I never ever want to lose:	the people i love.
I get annoyed when:	someone tugs at my hair.
Today I:	woke up at around 3 pm. Watched Benjamin button, which was a drag.
I wish:	oh yeah , i wish!

Personal

Have you laughed until you cried:	Lots of times.
Have you found out who your true friends were:	I guess so, yeah.
What were you doing at midnight last night:	Eating peanuts and talking to parents.
Name something you CANNOT wait for:	My trip to gujranwala :D
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom:	No i haven't.
What are you listening to right now:	Same mistake - James blunt.
Last time you saw your father :	Last night!
Most visited webpage:	Facebook, google, msn, mininova.

About the Me.

Well. I dont have a life. And im bored. And i found this thing on facebook, so i filled it, and as i have nothing to write in here, so well , yeah, why not. Here you go:

The Basics

Hair Color:	Billack.
Eye Color:	Billack.
Profession:	Student.

This or That

Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla!
Coke or Pepsi :	Pepsi.
Beer or Wine:	Both =p
Coffee or Tea:	Coffayy!
Apple Juice or O.J.:	Apple Juice without a doubt.
Facebook or MySpace:	Facebook.
Summer or Winter:	WINTERS!
Cats or Dogs:	Dogs, if i have to choose.
Rain or Shine :	Rain.
Chips or Popcorn:	Chips.
Salty or Sweet:	Spicy :P
Morning or Night:	Nightt.
Walk or Drive:	Walk.
Money or Love:	Both :p
Breakfast or Dinner:	Dinner.
Forgiveness or Revenge:	Forgiveness. Not a revenge person =p
Paint or Wallpaper:	Paint.
House or Apartment:	Housee.

Do You?

Have Any Pets:	Nope.
Have Any Children:	Not that i know of. LOL.
Smoke:	Ew.
Drink:	Yes. Alchoholic.
Exercise:	Try to =p
Spend Your Life On Facebook:	Unfortunately, yes.
Play On A Sports Team:	Pff!
Belong To Any Organizations:	Naah.
Sing:	All the time =p
Ice Skate:	Never had a chance.
Swim:	Yeah :D
Paint:	Naah.
Write:	Sure.
Juggle:	Cant.

Have You Ever

Stolen Anything:	I guess yeah, maybe, when i was little :$
Got Caught Telling A Lie:	Yep.
Cheated On A Test:	LOL. :p
Failed A Class:	No =)
Eaten Food Off The Floor:	NO =p
Stuck Gum Under A Desk:	Maybe once or twice.
Cried During A Movie:	Oh yeah!