Sunday, August 29, 2010


5:47 a.m. D-Day.
The past two days have been THE most stressful days of my life. And it's all yet to be over. I've cried and been sad and felt hopeless and stressed out and more stressed out. Its just an exam. But its THE exam. There's been so much build up for this. That now that its just hours away, I'm afraid to face it. I'm afraid to fail. And I'm scared of letting everybody down. Especially myself. I know even if I don't make it (Allah na karay =\), I'll end up somewhere fine. But I just raelly really want this. I really do. And I've prayed and everyones prayed too. I trust God, but I don't trust myself. I keep forgetting everything. Argh. I won't talk about it right now.
I have to get ready at 6. I haven't slept a minute all night. I tried. Couldn't. That's okay. I give all my exams sleepless. But this one's just the Mother of all exams! Hahah.
Oh God.
I've stopped studying. There are many things i can study and revise right now, but I'll freak out if i open my books again. Im fasting. It's going to be a long day.
I've NEVER freaked out so much about any exam. Ever. I'm always so chill the day of the exam. I laugh, and enjoy the whole thing. But this time, its just different. I can't laugh. I want to. I want to feel like I can DO THIS. I'm thinking positive.
I'm going to run on the treadmill now for some. Exercise. Endorphins. Feel good thingies. I need.
5:53 a.m.
I should go exercise now. I don't want to stop writing though.
Okay. I will.
I'll tell you all how it went. I hope it goes great. :D It HAS TO. It just does. God's with me. So. Like. HAS TO.


The Heretic Teen said...

hey...good luck for the exam :)
update soon. joining u.

Tazeen said...

What exam are you preparing for? All the best with it :)