The purposeless post.

Great. First my head hurt, so did my mouth (mouth sores :( ). My wrists hurt because of bruises of unknown origins. And now my stomach hurts too. If its because of the kababs we ordered from the nearby place, im going to very mad. Because the last time i had normal 'khana' was when i visited home last week and i don't want it to make me sick.
Anyway. Its 4 a.m. Four thirty actually. Its a sunday. Im staying at the hostel because i need to study the Brain for my substage tomorrow. I haven't been able to sleep all night, what with my entire body hurting and everybody dozing off without refilling the air cooler for the night. So, you can imagine. The garmi. The discomfort. The frustration of not being able to sleep. Killing. So i finally got out of bed and decided to fill the damned cooler. And now that its full and functional, im finally lying down comfortably, writing this purposeless post.
I've got to organize my thoughts more. What's wrong with me?
Alright i think i'm done writing my purposeless post. I have nothing more to add.
Oh, except, i got my new phone yesterday. Samsung galaxy s3. Loving it. Okaybye.

We are young.

There's something about this song.

 Its a stupid song. Yet. There's something about it, at 3 a.m in the morning. When you've just swallowed a mug of poisonous hot coffee, in late May, trying to memorize the muscles of the tongue for a viva in the morning that you have no prep whatsoever for. After you've had Naan samosa, and a ten minute scolding from your mom later over the phone for not eating proper khana.

Tonight,
We are young,
So let's set the world on fire, 
so we can burn brighter,
than the sun.

Its a stupid song. Yet. Something about that chorus. Makes you want to sing it at the top of your lungs.  When you're around your People. When you go crazy with them. When you go reckless with them. When you laugh with them, after so long, and so hard, that your jaws, stomach, and head hurts. When you go out to have breakfast at McDonald's and watch the sun rise on your way. When you don't care about what/when you eat or sleep. All you care about it having a good time, with your people. Because after those few couple of days, precious days, you're going to go back on autopilot. For everyday of every week that's ahead of you.

I guess that I
I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart
But our friends are back
So let's raise a cup
Cause I found someone to carry me home

This does not mean that I like this song. Maybe it does. Or maybe, it's just the poisonous coffee, or the muscles of the tongue, or the fact that this song made, for a moment, my very important viva look trivial to me as compared to writing in my blog, which, right now, seems like the most important thing to do.

Its a stupid song nonetheless.

Haywire.

Things have been haywire. Since far too long. But i feel like I'm finally getting things under control now. Over the past few weeks, things have been in sync. Studies, home, sleep. Things have been under control. A few days back, I went reckless and took the bus home with s2 to surprise everyone. Mom was ecstatic. I don't regret it. Took days off from college, which definitely puts my attendance in jeopardy but I still don't care. It was worth it. I got to meet with a cousin of mine who(whom?) i hadn't talked to in ages. It was good to meet him. And my Nano. Played Tabboo till late last night with friends and cousins. Fun. Now I'm back at the hostel. For the first time in almost 2 years, I'm having roommate issues. And I'll have to say, it sucks. I miss the comfort of my non-awkward, non-issue room. But I can't really help things. Maybe I'm too stubborn. Maybe I'm right. I don't know. All i can do for now, is what feels right. And that's that.

My throat is messed up. Blocked, itchy, painful, dry. But I'm taking my meds, so I'm hoping it won't get any worse. I have my Biochemistry Practical - Viva tomorrow. I'm still reading the first experiment. There are a billion more to go. But i do have time. It's only 8. Ive been watching Sherlock lately. Season 2. And ah, how i LOVE that show. I love love love Sherlock Holmes. Its one of those things I obsess about a little. Like Titanic. Cumberbatch is awesome. So was Richard Roxburgh. But Robert Downey? NOH PLISS. I'll never see him as Sherlock Holmes. No sir. Anyway. Every time Sherlock dies, I cry. Can't help it. Movie, tv show, book. I well up whenever he dies. But I'm glad they chose to not kill him in Sherlock. The part where Dr.Watson talks to Sherlock's grave, kills me. It kills meh! Imma watch it again. And shit, I'm just rambling. On and on. Bleh.

 Its 8:12 pm. I need to eat something sweet. I wonder what though. Biscuits with tea maybe. Yeah that'll do.

 Ah. I miss home. I miss my cousins. I miss being at my khala's, going out everyday, eating good food, having good conversation, and laughing at things that are genuinely funny. I need to hang out with N too. Which I don't think is happening anytime soon, since we're both so busy. But I want to. I want to be around My People. Because My People, are nice. And they make me feel good. But then, you can't always have everything. So I guess I'll have to suck it up.

 I've missed blogging.

 And I miss these brownies. That s1 hasn't baked for me since SO long -__- .

Bullets.

• I like Maggie's Chicken flavor so much more than Knorr's.
• I like my new black pumps.
• Suffered a major Sneeze attack today. It exhausted me. I think I'm going to end up taking an anti-allergic everyday.
• I have come to like Nokia e72, which I'm using until i get a new phone. Its nice.
• I somehow feel like if i were to put my eyeball in my mouth, it would taste sour.
• A huge fat cat climbed on my back while i was napping early this morning. I accidentally left the door open. Traumatized me, it did.
• I need a pretty skin for my laptop asap.
• I also want a box of chocolates. One that has all sorts of fancy chocolates with fancy names and descriptions in it.
• I'm watching V for Vendetta again.
• I must confess that I am a little addicted to caffeine.
• I named one of my friends Kevin today. After the huge bird, from the movie Up.
• I'm sleepy. Should I have coffee? I need to make Histology diagrams AND study Anatomy. -_-
• I'm trying to minimize the hours of sleep i get daily.
• I didn't study anything today.
• I just talked to N for more than an hour. Felt good.
• I'm very hungry, and dying to eat a cheese sandwich. But we're out of bread. Kill me. There's nothing to eat.
• I borrowed bread from a friend downstairs and had the cheese sandwich. Except that the bread was brawn bread. And it tasted weird. But at least I'm full.
• I made half of my histo diagram, I'll draw the rest during lectures tomorrow.
• I'm still watching V for Vendetta. Beauty, is what that movie is.
• Its 2 a.m. I shall sleep soon.
• And that is all for today.
• Also, Ive decided..whenever I'm going to do a post like this, I'm going to title it as Bullets. Because thinking of post titles is a pain. Okaybye.

iStudy..not.

I am astonished at my inability to concentrate on my test syllabus for more than 10 seconds. I am astonished. And a little depressed. I had no distractions today. I watched two episodes of Downton, i had a huge mug of coffee, i showered, i was alone at home. No distractions. Had only my book by my side. Yet. I could not study. I read two lines. And then started thinking about the randomest of things. About what stationery i had to pack with me. Which friends I had lost touch with. Which perfume my mom was buying for me today. What drivers still needed to be installed on my laptop. I thought of everything, except Physiology. I tried reading out loud, i tried motivating myself. I tried to just go through the text at least once. But i couldn't. There was always something more important on my mind. Or more interesting. So i decided to just lie back, and think thoroughly about everything that was on my mind. So i could study in peace later. Ha. As if. But I did it anyway. I lied down on my back like a dead person and closed my eyes...and fell asleep. Win. -___- I woke up an hour later. Thought about more trivial matters. Whatsapped with a couple of friends. And then everybody came back home from shopping. Now that I've seen whatever they bought, I'm waiting for the Chinese to get here because I'm starving at the moment. s1 brought movies. I think we're going to watch New Year's Eve tonight. I have zero expectations from that movie. But oh well. That's what being on holiday means right? Staying up late, wasting time, watching shitty movies, eating till you want to puke and sleeping till your head hurts. I think I've gone off topic. Ah. I can't study. I haven't studied. I am deliberately ruining any chance of passing this test. I need to pass this test. BUT I CAN'T MAKE MYSELF STUDY. I haven't studied at all this year. Second year, that is. I just haven't. I've managed to pass my tests, but I haven't given any real time to studying. Haven't properly studied for a single test. Not one. What is wrong with me? =] Okay bye. I've whined enough for the day. P.s. The entire time I was writing this post, Linsdey Stirling's Crystallize kept playing in my head. Just saying.

Downton Abbey.

Oh God, I love Downton Abbey. I love it love it. I'm a sucker for period dramas. :'] Oh, and I spent an hour or two up on my terrace today. The usual. Rain, coffee, music, sky, thoughts. Felt amazing. I should be spending time with mom and dad right now, but i can't stop watching Downton Abbey. So okay bye. Funny. Dad just came and asked me to make him some coffee. As usual. Hah. Cute.

Drive by.

I'm in a good mood this morning. Slept after three in the morning. Yesterday was a goood day. Tiring, but fun. S1's in town. We went out for lunch, got a haircut, that i'm really happy with, bought a set of dominoes, played with that set, attempted to install windows 7(unsuccefully) twice on my new laptop, stayed up till late to drop off someone to the airport. Came back and slept. Woke up today, packed some of my things, had left over prawns and strawberries for breakfast and now i'm on my way to college.

New happy song: Drive by - Train.