Lucky.

I feel lucky.

I had my second Prof today. Went alright. The first one sucked. Not even sure if i'll pass. But, whatever.

I feel lucky. Because i've realized how pampered I am. Infact, i am a little amazed at just how nice everybody is to me, generally. My family loves me. I whine infront of my sisters 24/7, i mean, literally 24/7 about my exams, and they put up with it. I ask N to talk to me continuously, and she does. My mom, prays for me relentlessly, and dad keeps a check on everything in his own discreetly cute way. My cousin Nd keeps a check on me too and gives me mini-brainwashing-lectures from time to time. And promises me to give me his new Galaxy s2, incase i fail. My friends ask me about my exams regularly. And then i have the Roomies. They're good people. They pamper me because they know how retarded, clumsy and lazy I am. They find me funny. And they miss me when im not there.

I also have an amazing rooftop here at the hostel, where i can sit for hours by myself and marvel at the awesomeness of the sky.

What more can I ask for?

Mood flucktuations.

At times nothing helps.
So i just go outside, listen to Coldplay, walk under the street light thing, marvel at how pretty everything is, smile to myself, and come back inside.

It helps.


On another note, i present to you, my exam playlist:

Paradise - coldplay.
(whattay mood lifter. Its so ME.)

You can't save me - Richie Kotzen
(a friend posted it on facebook recently. I liked it. And downloaded it.)

Soothsayer - Buckethead
(as good as a cup of coffee most of the times)

November Rain - Guns and Roses.
(because its long and awesome)

Ghost host - Buckethead
(gooood study music. Keeps me focused)

Blue Jeans - Lana del ray
(heard it on my online french radio. It has a funny feeling to it. Perfect walking music.)

Saari raat jaaga - Noori
(For when i take a break just to listen to a song)

..and that is about it for now. Except last night i couldn't sleep. So i turned on a random comedy channel on my online radio. Ellen degeneres made some lame jokes and i fell asleep.

P.s. Yes, i said fluck-tuations. What are you staring at?

Deathby proffs.

Weird day yesterday. Woke up early. Walked to college. Attended a one-hour lecture. Of sorts. Bought some stationery. Bought barbican. Bought Nestle juices. Hostel. Slept. Woke up. Studied. Studied. Slept. Woke up. Studied. Started panicking. Texted N. Talked about stupid stuff with N. Talked to s2. For two minutes. Talked to mom. Assured her that my prep was fine. Tried to study. Couldn't. Panicked more. Texted people. Felt worse. Had a craving for biscuits and tea. Went out to get biscuits. Got biscuits. Made tea. Had it. With biscuits. Took a break. Watched random movie trailers on my phone. Tried to study. Couldn't. Felt awful. Went to sleep. Woke up. Drank barbican. Studied a little. And panicked again. Wasted hours doing nothing. Felt shitty. Tried studying. Studied a little. Wrote a long note on my phone. Ranted, really. Erased it. Tried studying again. Ended up missing mom and dad. Went to sleep. Kept waking up every fifteen minutes. Had a billion dreams. Of fire and rain, and fire again. Of hell.. in my drawing room. Of a ship. And of a girl i don't even know. Woke up finally an hour ago. Around 7 a.m. Took a heavenly shower. Now here i am. Sleepy as hell. Studying again. Feeling shitty. Will do anything for a good cup of coffee.
Oh well.

Exams have a way of bringing me down.

s1 hates me.

While s1 was studying..

me: s1!

s1: the hepatic parenchyme is organized into cribiform anastomosing sheets or plates..

me: s1. Im scaredddd.

s1: ..of hepatocytes seen in microscopic sections as cords of cells..

me: s1! I cant studyyy.

S1: hepatocytes immediately abutting the portal tract are..

me: s1! Meray nakhray bardaasht karo.

s1: rederred to as a limiting plate forming a discontinuous rim around the mesenchyme...

Me: meray nakhray bardaasht karo.

s1: of the portal tract. There is a radial..

me: meray nakhray bardaasht kao!

s1: Shut up.

me: ...

Tiny Eid post.

So. Eid. We didn’t go to our relatives this time. I was super bummed. But then. We did our own little BBQ dinner at home. Just us. And it was amazing. And I ate a lot. And had custard later.

 

So yeah. I'm happy.

My proffs start in about two weeks. The panic shall kick in soon.

Chen.

The last two weeks have been great. Stayed at Khala's last week. Now I'm home for Eid. Im going to miss it. Its hostel again after this. But that's fine too.

My roommates have decided to call me Chen from now on. They think i look Chinese. Ahan.

Watched In Time yesterday. Refreshing idea. Not well executed but. Oh well.

Hate how people say things they don't mean. Confuses me.

That is all for today.