Thursday, February 3, 2011

Learning to breathe.

Yay. New blogpost.
I just waited fifteen minutes for the net to start working in this stupid cafe, just so I could blog again.

Oh, this road is long, this road is wide,
It takes more than luck to last the ride,
It takes strength and it takes courage to survive,
And did someone ever say to you,
"There's nothing bound in thought you cannot do?"
Well, I've seen some things but not all of them came true.

I have to go for a walk after this. Im trying to be all healthy and exercise-y. Today is exactly one month, that I've been away from home.
What I've learnt these past few months is that, people are always going to doubt you, and your decision,your ability, and haha, in my case, sanity too. But you need to really really make your mind up about what you want and what you don't want. Because once you ask people for advice, they're going to pull you in all directions until you're lost. I'm not against asking people for advice, because I ask all my People for advice before I make a decision. But after i listen to everyone, I sit down and figure out what it is that I want. And then I go with whatever seems best. People can be so convincing at times, in making you think that you just made the biggest mistake of your life in making a particular decision. o.O But you gotta take the risk. Cuz Risks are fun, and they make you feel awesome.
I sound a little reckless.
Reckless is fun.
I need to cut my nails.

So I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
Don't want to be alone with my thoughts tomorrow,
And I don't want to be afraid, don't want to look away,
I'm learning to breathe.

I need a new pair of jeans. And a black sweater. And a haircut.
Soo much to do! I watched Avatar again last night. I had fun watching it. Naa'avi. Blue slithery things. I doodle all sorts of things on my notebook during lectures. Girls are so amused by that, I don't know why. Lol. They think I'm funny. Okay i'll tell you some of the things i've been said to, these past few weeks:
- I like your nose.
- You remind me of Goofy.
- Dude you have a MAJOR randomness streak going on right now. [To which i told her that it was kinda permanent]
- You're just like Olive. From popeye.
- You're SOO funny!

I think maybe i AM funny. I don't know. People are funny. And I am people too.
This new phase of life is very new. But somehow, i'm doing fine. Im not suffocating or totally dying like I imagined I would. Im fine. It gets sucky at times, but I'm a survivor yo. B] . I don't know what I would be without my optimism. Heh.

No I don't want to be the last, I don't want to be the first,
I just need a hope and a light to follow,
Like sailors look to stars to find their way home,
I'm learning to breathe on my own.

S1 said she's going to call me. So imma go now. Byee y'all.


Moonie said...

you're all mature!

Roshni said...

I think you're funny sometimes -nod-

Anonymous said...

have been reading ur blog for soo long, never commented though :)
yeah u sound a bit more mature now, and a lil less-random, but i liked the random part more. =D
and yeah, the frequency of posts. decreasing exponentially...which is not a gud thing, seriously! -_-

AL said...

hahahah i always read your blog... and you are funnnyy

AL :)

Ana said...


AbeerJ said...

*I need a new pair of jeans. And a black sweater. And a haircut* SAME. i miss ur randomness, but ur story of survival is inspiring nonetheless. U wanted more i got u more btw,

Sidrah said...

you do sound funny.. advice can be given but that doesn't mean we have to act upon them. Trust yourself, do what you feel is right. N yay for u =)

Eirene said...

atta girl. you're awesome and you should know it :)

Nuckin Futs said...

You sound cool, that's what you sound...

Totally Agree to the second paragraph about people sounding so convincing... like seriously :|

Nice read :)