Tuesday, January 12, 2016


My dreams are back. Raging back. For a while everything was vague and foggy. Not anymore. They are bizarre and they are back. With cancer, wars, prisons and .. Ok that sounds disturbing. But then I have exams so what do you expect.

I'm up early. Willy the rooster is being loud as usual. I went out to the balcony to see what my neighbors were up to. I like to observe their mornings.

A friend is here. My breakfast is ready. Since I'm the lazy hobo type, my breakfast consists of instant noodles, protein bar that friend generously threw at me last night, double tea-bag tea and a half eaten macaroon.

I've noticed that a lot of people, when they want something they take it.  Without much regard for anything else. And here you are thinking about how everything you do or say will make them feel. Pfft.

I need my phone to keep beeping if I'm going to be studying late at night. I need that distraction. It's almost 2 and the world is asleep. My world I.e. my small world of people who I can talk to. They're all asleep. So I'm restless.

Today is one of those mornings. I'm too comfortable in my quilt. The lamp is on. I only have exam prep to look forward to. Which is why I'm still in bed.

Came home last night, on a whim, absolutely desperate for a hot shower. And boy was it rejuvenating. S1 bought all this new shower stationery that I got to pick and choose from. I was over joyed. This was followed by coffee, macaroon and warm pj's. Happy sigh.

My mental climate is very different from what it was a few months ago.

I woke up to the sound of rain. Well slept, head full of dreams.
Got a call from mom asking me to open the gate. They brought boneless fish. I waited in the porch for a while breathing in the rain. They came. We ate and laughed. Now I've made myself a mug of coffee and I'm back in the porch. I've stumbled upon a YouTube playlist that has coffee shop songs.
Oh God. What is one to do in weather like this? It makes me feel like I can jump off a building and not even fall.

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