Thursday, March 19, 2015

Silence, thought and voice.

I did not go to college today. So it's one of those quiet afternoons where i get to be on my own. Lamp, green tea, the works. Just showered, and i feel acid clean. I love this term. Acid clean. I like to feel that way. I am usually empty of things to say around this time of the day. Where does it all go? I don't know. But when I'm walking to the bus stop in the morning, or to my room at the hostel, or around the park at night, that's when my head is buzzing. I write a lot of mental blogposts that unfortunately never get to see the light of the...laptop screen? Hah, anyway.
Is it too weird that I have divided the people in my life into compartments and I get really stiff when all of them decide to mix with each other? A little at a time is alright, and has happened before. But lately i feel like everything is going to into a blender and some mushy kind of shit is going to come out of it at the end that I won't be okay with. I mean, I'm exaggerating, but you get the idea.
Last night I was walking and I looked at the sky, and the stars were in the shape of a question mark. It made me laugh a little.
I was talking to s1 today, and she said that my problem is that I try to get inside everyone's shoes, and it is impossible to do that. But is it? One can try no? I don't know.
On a slightly different note, the floaty feeling persists. But I'm starting to wonder if it's not a bad thing after all. Maybe feeling grounded is over rated. We'll see.


Anonymous said...

hello, this might sound stupid, but i really really really want you to please help me know the dos and donts of hostel life. :S after 4 months i sholdve gotten used to it me thinks...but withh each passing day its becoming worse, i cnt remember the last time i was happy.. i have this constant pain in my head and i feel its going to explode soon..i didnt mean to express it here for everyone to see but unfortunately u havent mentioned any email address wher i could cry my heart out without having to feel embarrassed :/

The Me. said...

You can email me at
Will be glad to help. :)