We are young.

There's something about this song.

 Its a stupid song. Yet. There's something about it, at 3 a.m in the morning. When you've just swallowed a mug of poisonous hot coffee, in late May, trying to memorize the muscles of the tongue for a viva in the morning that you have no prep whatsoever for. After you've had Naan samosa, and a ten minute scolding from your mom later over the phone for not eating proper khana.

Tonight,
We are young,
So let's set the world on fire, 
so we can burn brighter,
than the sun.

Its a stupid song. Yet. Something about that chorus. Makes you want to sing it at the top of your lungs.  When you're around your People. When you go crazy with them. When you go reckless with them. When you laugh with them, after so long, and so hard, that your jaws, stomach, and head hurts. When you go out to have breakfast at McDonald's and watch the sun rise on your way. When you don't care about what/when you eat or sleep. All you care about it having a good time, with your people. Because after those few couple of days, precious days, you're going to go back on autopilot. For everyday of every week that's ahead of you.

I guess that I
I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart
But our friends are back
So let's raise a cup
Cause I found someone to carry me home

This does not mean that I like this song. Maybe it does. Or maybe, it's just the poisonous coffee, or the muscles of the tongue, or the fact that this song made, for a moment, my very important viva look trivial to me as compared to writing in my blog, which, right now, seems like the most important thing to do.

Its a stupid song nonetheless.

Haywire.

Things have been haywire. Since far too long. But i feel like I'm finally getting things under control now. Over the past few weeks, things have been in sync. Studies, home, sleep. Things have been under control. A few days back, I went reckless and took the bus home with s2 to surprise everyone. Mom was ecstatic. I don't regret it. Took days off from college, which definitely puts my attendance in jeopardy but I still don't care. It was worth it. I got to meet with a cousin of mine who(whom?) i hadn't talked to in ages. It was good to meet him. And my Nano. Played Tabboo till late last night with friends and cousins. Fun. Now I'm back at the hostel. For the first time in almost 2 years, I'm having roommate issues. And I'll have to say, it sucks. I miss the comfort of my non-awkward, non-issue room. But I can't really help things. Maybe I'm too stubborn. Maybe I'm right. I don't know. All i can do for now, is what feels right. And that's that.

My throat is messed up. Blocked, itchy, painful, dry. But I'm taking my meds, so I'm hoping it won't get any worse. I have my Biochemistry Practical - Viva tomorrow. I'm still reading the first experiment. There are a billion more to go. But i do have time. It's only 8. Ive been watching Sherlock lately. Season 2. And ah, how i LOVE that show. I love love love Sherlock Holmes. Its one of those things I obsess about a little. Like Titanic. Cumberbatch is awesome. So was Richard Roxburgh. But Robert Downey? NOH PLISS. I'll never see him as Sherlock Holmes. No sir. Anyway. Every time Sherlock dies, I cry. Can't help it. Movie, tv show, book. I well up whenever he dies. But I'm glad they chose to not kill him in Sherlock. The part where Dr.Watson talks to Sherlock's grave, kills me. It kills meh! Imma watch it again. And shit, I'm just rambling. On and on. Bleh.

 Its 8:12 pm. I need to eat something sweet. I wonder what though. Biscuits with tea maybe. Yeah that'll do.

 Ah. I miss home. I miss my cousins. I miss being at my khala's, going out everyday, eating good food, having good conversation, and laughing at things that are genuinely funny. I need to hang out with N too. Which I don't think is happening anytime soon, since we're both so busy. But I want to. I want to be around My People. Because My People, are nice. And they make me feel good. But then, you can't always have everything. So I guess I'll have to suck it up.

 I've missed blogging.

 And I miss these brownies. That s1 hasn't baked for me since SO long -__- .