I am Mine.

Life is weird. Its true.
Its funny how I've grown into Somebody over the years. I remember when I was 13, and 14, and 12 and all those weird ages. And I was finding my way through all kinds of things. And now I'm Me. I'm this  person, who has all these thoughts, and opinions about things. There are things I know i want, and things I know I don't want. And I behave a certain way. I have just, grown. My thoughts have changed, and so have my ideas and beliefs, but I'm still the same inside. Just a more extreme version of my older self. It makes me smile. How we keep evolving. And changing. And yet still remain unchanged.
I'm excited, for everything that's ahead of me. Good and bad. I'm excited for the grayness. For all of it.

Btw the view out of my room's window is pretty at night. Its not mountains, or the sea, or pretty buildings, not even pretty houses. Its just a couple of trees, and some average looking houses, a lane, and a street light. But its awfully nice to see. And I'm glad to have it.

The farmer’s daughter is mean.

I'm not a saint. I just think.. whatever. Why does being nice have 'consequences'? That doesn't sound fair. That's not encouraging. Really, its not. How am I supposed to be nice if I know people are going to take it for granted and mess with me because of it? That's hardly encouraging.
People are mean.

I want ice cream. Why did I tell mom I didn't want ice cream when she asked me ten minutes ago? :S Now there's no one who can bring it for me.
ICE CREAM!

'I fell in love with the farmer's daughter
We got married last spring'
Wth. Random song on Real player.

I repeat, people are mean.

Click, click, flash.

I love being in my room. The comfort and freedom of having a room of your own. It’s amazing. I remember when my parents decided to give me and my sisters separate rooms. S1 choose the one downstairs, I had the little corner one upstairs, and S2 had the big one next to mine. Haha. S2 takes the big and expensive things everytime. =p . S1 painted her room Blue. Mine was dark red (which dad thought was absurd btw) and s2 choose Lilac for hers. We bought matching carpets and curtains and personalized em in a day. It was fun. S1’s room is green and s1-ish now. Then dad bought us separate Tv sets for our rooms and we felt like princesses. There was also a fight about who’d get to keep the DVD player. S2 won.

I feel so prettay, picture perfect beautiful!

This song is stuck in my brain. I heard it on Star World.

Anyway. So i love having my own room and that was the point basically.

The weather was amazing yesterday. I woke up with a grin on my face. Shit. I feel like making a comic strip thingy about this. Ooo. But okay, later. I'm too lazy. =[ Haw.

OMG ENOUGH WITH THE BOND MOVIES ON STAR WORLD! >.< THEY’RE LAME! I don’t like James Bond. Never have. Never will. They’re all weird. Zero zero whatever. I don’t give a pff.

Money is so good. I want. Lots. Give? No? Ok. =’<

Btw, i downloaded a new theme for my Xp. I like it. Check it out:

=D Bye.

Back in the saddle.

Hello y’all! =D

My results out! I scored Goood. I like my result :D I’m happy! I wanted this to happen SO bad. And it did! And ain’t God just awesome?

We’re going out to have steaks tonight =D

Some of my friends didn’t get what they wanted, and they’re sad. And I'm sad for them. And I don’t know what to say to them. Because I know how this feels. I know what they’re thinking and feeling, and whatever I tell them right now, it won’t matter. I just hope they feel better soon. Very soon okay?

So anyway. Now that this results out, I have to start focusing on the MAJOR entry test ahead that’s going to decide my precious little future. I have to make it. I have to study like a horse. Or a dog. Anything. I HAVEEEEEE to go all the way! Bas! No excuses.

I’m happy and sad and there’s some anxiety floating around inside me too. But, whatever, I love God for making this happen. And I can’t complain. Seriously.

Okay, bye now.

Pray for me. DO IT! >.< 

Shades of Gray.

Hi. I have 52 followers, no, 53 followers now. That's EEUUGE (huge =\) for me. My wittle blog has more than 50 followers! How awesome. ='] Back when I had 40 something followers, I decided that I would write a special post at 50, but then I never got the chance. So I'll write one later. And I've decided what it's going to be about. Its going to be about things I love. I have stolen the idea from another blog. Hopelessly Flawed's blog actually. =D So.

Moving on.

Failure, is interesting. And I don't like it. All them quotes and stuff talk about how motivational and self building it can be, but to tell you the truth, I'd just rather win. Its just, more comfortable that way. You know it. I know it. Lets stop making motivational quotes. Lets ban failure. Lets never, just, lose. Lets always win. Let others lose and build themselves, I shall just win and be awesome. =]

So blogger is so lame. I made a new Page on my blog called 'iQuote', where I thought I would quote all sorts of Movies, and dialogues and song lyrics etc, but it was after I created the page that I found out that we aren't allowed to post stuff on these pages. FAIL! -.- So I deleted it, and etc etc.

These days aren't so bright. But I still don't feel so black. I don't know. Gray. Everywhere. At times its light gray, and at times its darker. But it's always Gray. Not really though, it's black at times. Grr. I hate Black times. But then, who doesn't right?

OmG I'm SO glad Spain won the World Cup. I loove Spain. I don't know much about it. But I love it. And there's a not-so-secret reason why. Haha. Okay. But Spain = cute.

And what's this funny shi*t [this is fun *giggle*] about this psychic Octopus. Octopus Paul. The Mighty! Weirdo. I don't care for him really. He can do whatever he want, and sit on any box he wants. Or eat. Or whatever.
Life is so philosophical. Very fun.
Okay bye.

Pointless.

I just wrote two paragraphs of pointless sh*t [ there, I did it again ^.^], and then backspaced all of it because, as i already mentioned, it was pointless, and crappy. And wasn’t about what I’m actually feeling right now. What I'm actually feeling right now is anxiety, and i don’t want to talk about all that on my blog right now. So. Whatever.

I write more stuff later. Bye bye.

p.s. I got my ID card made today. I’ll get it in about a week’s time or so. The picture, as per tradition, came out sucky. =]

p.s. The flu and headache's still there, and killing me still.

How annoying.

I feel feverish. Headache, flu, forehead-ache, flu. neck-ache, and flu. Did i mention flu?  But its just that i don’t have fever. I checked. 97.7. Bummer.

I’m not going to talk about studies, because that will make me go crazy and i don’t want to feel that way right now.

I was out of city these past few days. Was fun, except for some parts but that's okay.

S2 bought me a shirt. I looove it.

I have this cousin. She's a baby. I call her Teetee. I love her. She’s the best. She’s growing up so fast. No fair. =[ Cute babies should always be babies. And the ugly ones should grow up fast. Really fast. I’m being mean. Poor babies.

I have to wake s2 up in 8 minutes.

I hate it when my throat goes dry because of the A.C. Didn’t use to happen before, but now it does. The A.c is after my throat! >.<

My new clothes are here. All stitched and done. Heh. They’re nice.

I'm really out of things to say. Well not really. Its just. I’m not in that mood right now and I'm just babbling on because i still got 5 mins to wake s2 up. 3 mins now.

Okay. Im not a highlighter person. I underline stuff with a pencil. I just don’t use highlighters. Only rarely, when I'm really bored.

Okay enough. Two mins to go. I’ll manage. Bye.